Despite the polemically politics discussion here and there, there is another important question that circulates through out each single nerve that resides within my brain that is How to be a good muslimah ? That question which is more specific to be addressed upon myself as how to be a good servant to Allah which applies to all who claim themselves as Islamic practitioners. I grabbed one of the opportunities back then when I just started my career in UTHM by attending a lecture conducted by Dato' Dr. Fadzilah Kamsah. His lectures were interesting and informative as usual. I remembered he did mention about the word 'insan' which was originated from the Arab word that when we interpreted it again brought the meaning of forgetful.
Further he explained that, that is how we, as a human being vividly the 'interpretation of insan' practically in our daily life. We keep forgetting and most of the times, we keep repeating the same mistakes all over again because of that 'forgetful mind'. However, from my point of view, it's not only that 'forgetful mind' whom should take the blame. The lack of i) willpower, ii) strong determination and iii) religious-oriented should share the responsibility as well. I also one of the 'forgetful mind's victim and a prey of all those numbered points I mentioned just now.
At first, I thought that I need someone who can keep reminding me about what's good and what's bad but it turned out that, I need to have those willpower, strong determination and as an individual, be more religious-oriented. After all, it's Allah, the ONLY TRULY source that we seek help, to woo support and to gain blessing in this world and the world after. 
And back to the main question on how to be a good muslimah? I admit, that the awareness to be a good muslimah is not always knocking my 'awareness receptor'. However, as one of my colleagues (En. Fandi) said, this journey (hijrah to this west mainland to seek knowledge) is the way to become a better muslim. Indeed, it is not only living in this so-called 'great' English country to seek wisdom but more than that; to teach us on how to be a good muslim/muslimah, to retain that decent attitudes that slightly differ to this so-called 'sophisticated' community on one hand while on the other hand, try to attain that first-class mentality and behaviour. Nothing is impossible to happen but once again, it depends on we, to DO or not to DO.
And personally I think, there is one more criteria that we always miss out that is about the heart diseases (penyakit-penyakit hati). How to cure those diseases of heart? How to discipline the soul? Eventually, back to basis. Think again of how we created by Allah swt because as we forget about this, I believe, we will always have that heart diseases. My humble judgement is based on these attitudes; arrogance and egotism which always accompany some people [ including myself...sob sob =( ] who are in higher posts that sometimes, they forget to look down to see other people who are less fortunate as compare to them. But as we keep lingering on how we created by the Almighty, we will ponder in every action that we may take. Having said that, continuous invocations and supplications (zikir and doa), will also help in curing the diseases of heart.
Nevertheless, it's learnt that it's far way easier to say rather than practically do it. But, just put all efforts to be the best, not only in this frenetic world life but particularly, in the world after. And as for me, lots of physical and mental preparations that need to mull over starting from now since I will make my second hijrah; that is to be a wife to someone. And from now onwards, I will start to think on how to be a solehah wife? As a matter of fact, we will always and always make a hijrah in our life. And my pray that, hopefully, on every hijrah that I make along the life, may it turn out to be good, may this soul will always fill with the regrets of past, now and future sins and may every minutes, this mind and body work hand in hand to be a good muslimah now and forever. InsyaAllah....
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I first being questioned by my fiance,"Are you fine there dear? Is that true that there was an earthquake in London today?". He sounded his worry towards me when I called him last night. And my quick response to him "HaaaaaaaaA ???". I was about to burst my high-pitch laugh since I never heard such thing in my life; I mean, the earthquake shakes London? But he quickly said, "I'm not sure dear because I'm too busy today and I don't have time to hear the news but, Ayah text me; he informed me about this thing and wanted to know about your condition there"
Oke, that was sound like a fact and not a fairy-tale since the news came from Ayah, my future father-in law. And for a while, I felt quite happy because Ayah quite concerned about my situation here! hehehe (shy shy cat..=p)...And so, I called my mum and dad as soon as I finished my talk with my fiance. And yeah, my mum kept asking me if I'm okay there? How was it? Did you feel anything? Was there any damages at your place? and bla bla bla...MUM ! I'm doing really fine here. Don't too much worry about me since I am being PROTECTED by your prays! It's your pray that keeps me live, healthy, happy, strong and patience here! Trillion THANKS for your DOA mak! I really, really appreciate for that mak! =D
Finished talking to my mum (I talked for about an hour and half!A usual time record..hehe), I googled to find the news about the earthquake and read the reports from the BBC. So, I figured out that it happened on Wednesday which was yesterday at about 1 am, and the magnitude recorded was around 5.3 Richter scale. That was pretty strong of earth movement! And indeed, it was the biggest earthquake magnitude that rocked the houses in London! Praise to ALLAH as well since it didn't happen in my area but I read that there was a part of East London which was also shook by the earthquake! Alhamdulillah ! Furthermore, the earthquake will shake London within 20 0r 25 years. Don't know that fact !!!
I anticipate that nothing is impossible to happen since it depends on ALLAH, The Almighty who has the true power; who decides which one is and which one isn't to crop up. Everything happens in this world is because of HIM, who consents thing to come about! And it's our duty or responsibility to ALWAYS pray to HIM and asks only the good things to be occurred in our life! And A very good reminder to you guys and to me as well is that, " Don't only close to HIM when you're facing woes !!! " Otey ?
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When I w0ke up this morning for Subuh pray, I looked at myself and started to realize that "I am not getting younger anymore...". This life is a forward process. Sometimes it needs a negative feedback and occasionally, requires a positive feedback to compensate and balance the life nature.
My age is going to be 25 this year...a quarter of century...for how long i can breathe the air, to experience the life, to view such a spectacular scenery that Allah, The Almighty has created. Yet, I haven't done any good things to be presented in front of HIM...
Ya Allah, forgive me, have mercy on me...guide me to the divine path...
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