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2011-03-31T08:34:00.003+01:00

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Illuminati dan Illumination. Antara AJL2009 dan PhD ku...

2010-12-28T09:50:00.006Z

Okay, aku nak luahkan rasa hati ni. Sebelum tu, apa-apa yang aku cerita di sini hanyalah pandangan dari mata hati aku dan di tambah 'perisa' oleh sumber-sumber lain yang tak perlu disebutkan di sini. Rasanya aku pernah beritahu pasal conspiracy theory yang aku sangat 'sibuk' nak baca tu. Perkara ni bersangkut paut dengan gerakan "Freemason". Tak perlu lah aku jelaskan di sini apa menatang Freemason ni sebab sumber internet dan majalah Mastika even PancaIndera (tarikh lupa daaa tapi awal tahun 2010) pernah salin semula luahan seorang anak muda berkenaan kebimbangannya terhadap pengaruh gerakan Freemason dalam elemen hiburan (AJL 2009) especially menerusi rangkaian TV No.1 Malaysia ni. (Ok, why suddenly i become too serious about this matter?!)

Sebabnya aku rasa macam ada kaitan dengan projek PhD aku ni. (Am i worried too much?) Hell, NO! (Ok..ada la sikit..huhu) Agak-agak korang pernah tak terbaca mana-mana naskhah nukilan Dan Brown? Aku tak pernah tengok Da Vinci Code tapi aku pernah tertengok Angel and Demon (siaran HBO). Jadi tertengok sebab dalam tahun ni aku ada terbeli novel terbaru Dan Brown The Lost Symbol so automatiknya aku terasa nak tahu apa agenda yang cuba disampaikan oleh Dan Brown dalam karya kedua dia sebelum ni. Walaupun tengok tak habis, aku mula faham betapa kuatnya pengaruh Freemason ni dalam kehidupan kita tanpa disedari oleh kita sendiri. Macam aku kata tadi, aku tak nak komen apa-apa pasal apa dakyah Freemason ni, tu korang cari sendiri la kalau nak tahu.

Berbalik pada kaitan PhD aku ni. Aku dapat lihat pengaruh illuminati dalam bidang akademik itu sendiri. Macam mana kaitannya tu, aku cerita di lain entry. Ada hal pula tetiba

Semester 1 dan Semester 2: penghujung dan permulaan!

2010-12-27T09:08:00.008Z

Lama rasanya tak ber’blogging’. Sabtu ni da mula masuk tahun 2011. Wow cepat betul masa! Aku kira-kira, enam bulan pertama pengajian akan berakhir 4 Januari akan datang. 20 Disember baru ni, pendaftaran pelajar baru dan lama untuk semester 2 2010/2011. Jadinya aku sudahpun selamat memasuki semester 2 pengajian PhD. Aku rate perjalanan PhD aku agak perlahan untuk 6 bulan pertama ni tapi sekurang-kurangnya satu conference paper sudah siap ditulis, menunggu pembetulan daripada SV dan Co-SV. Bukanlah pencapaian yang seharusnya dibanggakan tapi menyuntik semangat untuk bekerja lebih gigih lagi!
Di UKM, ada syarat baru buat pelajar yang mendaftar bermula tahun 2009 untuk membolehkan bergraduasi: 2 journal + 2 conference papers perlu dihasilkan bagi pelajar PhD dan 1 journal + 1 conference paper bagi pelajar sarjana! Hoho, nasib baik minta 2 kalau universiti lain contoh macam di Jepun, kalau tak silap nak lebih daripada tu. Bermulanya semester baru ni, semakin banyaklah kerja-kerja yang perlu dilakukan. Aku dah mula kena buat hardware+software applications. Modeling aku kira dah selesai buat masa ni. Boleh tutup buku bab tu sekejap. So, semester ni, tumpuan aku pada optical sensors, virtual instrument dan real blood phantom. Owh sungguh banyak kerja perlu dibuat untuk tahun 2011 ini!
Fahim pula 3 Januari ni cukup 10 bulan. Dah tambah lagi umur anak bujang aku ni! Tapi aku still tengok dia kecil je. Hahahaha. Mak-mak memang macam tu, anak da besar panjangpun dia rasa macam baru semalam beranakkan dia! Yups, itulah perasaan aku sekarang, baru faham kenapa dulu mak aku selalu treat kami adik beradik macam anak kecil!
Yang bestnya, pengakhiran 6 bulan pertama aku ni ialah satu presentation dalam group meeting 4 Jan ni. Hoho. Sangat berdebar nak dengar 'hentaman' soalan daripada budak-budak foreigners ni. Selalu bagi killer questions! Permudahkanlah segala-galanya Ya Allah! Amin.

Hari-hari yang berlalu…

2010-10-08T04:34:00.004+01:00

Fahim @ KLIA and home!

Fahim sudahpun 7 bulan 4 hari. Selain dah terror meniarap; Fahim dah laju mara kedepan malah dah boleh merangkak dan belajar duduk sikit-sikit! Tu takpe lagi, yang best tu, si bujang ni sudah boleh berdiri sambil berpaut pada apa-apa sahaja yang membolehkan dia berdiri dengan cemerlangnya termasuklah berpaut pada belakang badan uminya! Rumah pula sudah semakin kemas…ahaha, macam salah guna perkataan je..bkn kemas tapi luas, supaya Fahim sayang boleh bergerak dengan bebasnya!!! =)

PhD ku…uhuhuhu…Berjalan seperti biasa sungguhpun sibuk menjaga Fahim ni. Impian nak jadi hamba Allah yang baik, isteri terbaik, ibu cemerlang dan pelajar berdedikasi kerana ALLAH, pada masa yang sama! Permudahkanlah perjalananku ya ALLAH! Amin.

Selain daripada focus pada teori yang bersangkut paut dengan PhD ni, akupun sibuk nak baca pasal teori konspirasi. Kenapa ek tetiba ada interest kat benda ni? Dah bosan kot dengan bahan bacaan biasa. Teori konspirasi; baca boleh tapi untuk terima terpulang pada diri individu masing-masing. Saya adalah pihak yang berkecuali. Kenapa lah aku merepek pasal benda ni pula!?

Huhu, bercakap pasal hubby; tersentuh naluri isteri ni. Pergi kerja awal, balik kerja lewat. Walau sungguh sibuk dan stress maha hebat yang dilaluinya, dia tetap pulang dengan senyuman! Kekuatan yang harus aku pelajari! Hari ni outstation ke Langkawi
lagi, tengah hari flight tapi mujur balik malam ni juga. Boleh kata tiap-tiap minggu pergi outstation kecuali minggu lepas. Huhu. Duhai Hubby, kepulanganmu ku nanti dengan senyuman juga! =) Ya Allah, peliharalah hubungan kami suami isteri daripada sebarang fitnah dan kejahatan manusia mahupun jin; juga buat semua suami isteri di dunia ini! Amin!

Extremely Fatigue…!

2010-09-03T16:02:00.005+01:00

** Dlm pd sibuk, smpat jgk mkn angin di Melaka(bersempena reunion high school malacca batch'99). Fahim@Bayview Hotel Melaka

Tak tahu nak cite mcmna tp mmg penaaat sngt. Hampir 3 mnggu 'bekerja' menyiapkan pembentangan, akhirnya semalam da selamat pun…Alhamdulillah, Berjaya juga diharungi dengan izin dan pertolongan dariNya…Semalam tidur awal, dekat2 jam 10mlm. Tahu2 je En Hubby kejutkan utk bangun solat subuh! Sabar jer laa! Sepanjang 21 hr berpuasa, ada la termiss sahur sekali ritu, tp puasa dapat diteruskan though still breastfeed Fahim. Tapi this time, hari ni, my body couldn't stand anymore! Terasa lapar sngt, smpai nak angkat Fahim pun rasa x larat, ditambah lenguh2 1 badan menyerang!

Fahim pula bila tahu hari ni umi dia sorang je jaga dia, asyik nak 'mamam' je..memula merengek2 pastu brtukar smpai ke tahap nangis kuat2 sbb susu bdn x cukup. Mcmna nak cukup, dah termiss sahur, x dpt minum dari jam 10 mlm semalam, liquid yg diperlukan utk transform mnjadi susu of course la berkurang, ditambah kepenatan mental dan fizikal yg melimitkan lagi proses penghasilan susu dlm bdn, akhirnya, ku miss jugak puasa tahun ni…Sedihnya,…ingatkan dapat penuh mcm last year. En Hubby minta berbuka supaya isteri dan anak dia selamat..huhu, dia takut aku terpengsan pulak kat rumah time dia tkde pi keje.

Last year punya puasa, time tu Fahim da around 3months+++ dlm perut…Tapi mmg gigih la nak teruskan berpuasa walaupun morning sickness yg agak heavy (mujur x smpai tahap masuk wad)…Morning sickness time sahur je, time puasa OK pula, Fahim mcm faham je waktu siang umi dia nak puasa...huhu.

Gembira rasanya bila hasil yang kita usahakan dengan sebaik mungkin diterima. Walaupun byk kekurangan here and there tp maklumbalas yg diterima akan digunakan sepenuhnya utk memperbaiki dan 'merapikan' lagi phd stages ni. Masih banyak lagi yg perlu dipelajari dan diperdalami. Ilmu yg ada sekarang ni terlalulaaaa kecil (dlm size piko kot…huhu) klu nak dibandingkan dengan ilmu ALLAH ni.

Anyway, nak credit bantuan mak dan En Hubby tersayang sepanjang tempoh 3 minggu yang kritikal ini, hanya Allah jua yg mampu membalas…Tak lupa jg abah yang sudi 'meminjamkan' mak utk berada di sini bagi menjaga Fahim..Masih x dpt nak cari babysitter yg baru…Tmpat lama, Fahim x dapat sesuaikan diri, maybe sbb hantar jarang2, tu yg dia mcm x selesa bila berada kat tmpat yg lain selain drpd rumah sewa kami ni…huhu

Fahim with Abi's friends

Semoga ALLAH mempermudahkan urusan akhirat dan dunia kami sekeluarga. Ya ALLAH, berkatilah segala usaha kami….Amiiiiin

2 Sept…

2010-08-26T07:08:00.003+01:00

*sekadar gambar hiasan -->

Apa kene mengena 2 sept ni dgn aku? Selain menjadi hari terakhir utk fahim berumur 5 bulan 30 hari (mesti nk kaitkan dgn fahim…aiihhh..=D ), 2 sept adlh hari utk aku buat presentation kedua dpn SVs ku..uhuhuhu…Presentation ni kira penting gakla utk aku dan SVs sbb hasil drpd presentation ni akan digunakan utk buat Grant proposal…huhu…Masa,… sungguh cpt kau berlalu…tak boleh ke ubah system 24 j/sehari kepada 48 j/ sehari? Masa ni sesuatu yg relative. Kalau ikut pd pembacaan aku dan ditafsirkan oleh pemahaman aku yg x seberapa ni, dalam Al-Quran ada menyebutkan perbandingan masa…tak ingt pula exactly nisbah yg disebutkan dlm Al-Quran tp analogi yg aku boleh berikan lebih kurang mcmni la: 1 hari di akhirat : 1000 hari mengikut perhitungan kita. Ini analogi la, yg sebetulnya boleh tanya pd ustaz2 or En. Google…I need more time…(ßalasan ke ni? Aihhh..)

Honestly, 3 weeks are not enuff for me to find those info. related to my Ph.D stages. Seriously, maklumat yg ada very limited. UKM Library x subscribe SPIE, so aku kena subscribe under personal subscription, mujur ada special consideration rate, murah je la byrnnya…10USD with one free online journal. Yg ni aku ambil Biomedical Optics Journal. And then, add another 45USD for Optical Engineering Journal. Maklumat yg aku perlukan x banyak ada di IEEE, springer dan Elsevier…Buat phantom ni biasanya Optical Engineer, photonics expert dan seumpama dengannya …tp tkpe, benda baru bagi aku, aku suka nak belajar…(ß positive…positif…positive)

Roughly, ada 5 stages yg perlu aku buat; 1. Modeling of light interaction through tissue 2. Instrumentation Development 3. Phantom Development 4. Animal Model and 5. Human Testing (Clinical testing). Setiap stage ada cabarannya tersendiri yg perlu ditangani secara berbeza. Setakatni, yg aku rasa paling pening utk difikirkan ialah Probe Design. A few options that can be adopted but not sure which one are suitable sbb kene buat modification sikit. Utk phantom pula, aku cuma consider utk buat wet phantom, tp cabarannya terletak samada nak gunakan real blood circulation ataupun ink-water solutions. Animal model pula, nak kena isi animal ethic form dulu, nk kene survey menatang apa yg boleh 'dikorbankan', then kena attend workshop berkaitan animal handling. Cabaran utk modeling pula lain. Kena try simulate in 3D tp sblum tu, nak kena survey pula optical software yg boleh digunakan spya boleh dibeli. Paling murah jumpa 2500USD itupun utk single-license. "Prof, cukup tak duit geran sebelum ni utk dulukan pembelian software ni?" uhuhuhu

Jgn berundur sebelum mencuba! Walaupun hasilnya nanti tk seberapa tp kalau aku delay tunjuk dpn diaorg, mcmna nk tahu kekurangan2 yg perlu ditambah, betul tak?

CUCI The Musical Season 2 BEST GILER!

2010-08-04T03:22:00.011+01:00

Dah lama dah teringin nak tengok teater dgn En Hubby sbbnya dah boring tengok movie kat cinema. Last time masa CUCI The Musical dipentaskan, saya and En Hubby nak tengok tapi sbb time tu kami tinggal berasingan menyebabkan susah sikit nk curi masa utk tengok teater tu. Lepas tu, masa pementasan NATRAHpun nak tngok gak. Teringin sngt nak tgok Maya Karin lakon live tp tgh preggy masa tu, so taknak la Baby Fahim terdedah dgn benda2 mcmni; not good for him. But this time, bila CUCI The Musical dipentaskan buat kali kedua and kitaorg dah live together-gether, mmg tak lepaskan peluang!

Kebetulan En Hubby saya ada kenalan yg kerja di Istana Budaya(IB), so dptla tiket yg boleh consider sbg free la jugak sbbnya member tu tak ckp pun kena byr berapa kat dia. Huhu. Anyway, sambung balik pasal CUCI The Musical Season 2 ni. Storyline sama mcm Season 1 dan juga movie dia EXCEPT this time, ada NABIL gantikan AC Mizal. Lakonan mereka2 semua tu sngatla mantop ok dan nampak natural sngat! Puas hati la dgn outcome lakonan diaorg. Kami tgok hari Sabtu lepas. Siap ada Datuk Sri Mukhriz tgok sekali tp dia duk kat seat VVIP la, tp xde la jauh sngt dr seat kami tu. Then, ada Adibah Nor yg dtg bagi support. Season 1 dia ada berlakon tp Season 2 ni, watak dia digantikan dgn Jac Vic. Nak amik gambo ngan Kak Adibah tp biasalah, i ni kan malu-malu miaw, so duk senyum2 kat dia dr jauh jer lah. Hehe.

Ada satu lagi pementasan pasal Che Det, after Ramadhan. Nak tgok Erra Fazira jd Tun Hasmah dan Esma Daniel jd Tun Mahathir. "En Hubby sila berusaha dptkan tiket utk saya yee! Heeeee".

Byk kali saya beritahu dgn En Hubby,"Kalaulah En Hubby pilih jd engineer kat IB instead of Muzium Negara, mesti sy seronok sbb dpt tengok teater selalu! Tiket teater kan mahal!" Tau tak apa En Hubby jawab? "Boleh je tp sanggup ke nak abg kerja sabtu ahad, weekdays pulak smpai umah jam 12 or 1 tghmalam? IB cuti tanpa teater bulan Ramadhan jer, hari2 lain fully occupied!" Oh Nooooo, saya sngt x sanggup! Huhu.

Gembiranyaaaaa!!! =D

2010-07-28T10:04:00.005+01:00

Tak salahkan kalau kita nk menikmati kegembiraan kerana berjaya menyiapkan kerja sebelum waktunya,…kerana masih dapat menjaga anak sendiri,… kerana usaha kita dihargai?! Ya, saya nk menikmatinya selagi boleh…! =DDD

Hanya En.Hubby dan Allah sahaja yg tahu bagaimana saya cuba menyiapkannya dalam keadaan sekarang ni! Thanks abg for sharing your brilliant idea! Tak sia-sia En. Hubby ambil kelas RC (Rekacipta) masa di Mrsm Jasin dulu. =p

Alhamdulillah,…Alhamdulillah,…Alhamdulillah! Perjumpaan dengan Prof. tgh hari tadi pun sngt positif. Sangat gembira bila Prof. menghargai apa yang saya lakukan. Hasil kerja yg biasa saje tapi bila diterima rasa semakin bersemangat!

"Prof, sila marah saya jika saya terleka!", itulah kata-kata gurauan saya pd Prof.tadi Walaupun dalam nada bergurau tp saya benar2 maksudkannya! Prof., terima kasih di atas kata-kata semangat yg diberikan. Saya faham tajuk ni tak semudah yang dilihat, tapi saya akan berusaha melaksanakannya! Sangat sangat la gembira kerana saya sudah ada mentor!=D Dan yg paling best lagi, saya dapat jaga sendiri Fahim Amzar sekurang-kurangnya hingga dia berumur 6 bulan (Sbb belum ada kekosongan tmpat di lab lagi)! Yeay!

Kejayaan sahabat-sahabat lain (Dr. Afandi, Dr. Amzari, K.Yus dan Abg Nan…) akan saya jadikan sebagai dorongan utk kaki ini terus melangkah lebih jauh dan semakin laju!

Perjalanan masih awal
lagi.
Anida, keep your momentum on the right track!
Jgn tersasar!

Picture source: Internet

“Mesti mencabarkan (susah) study sambil jaga baby and suami?”

2010-07-26T04:57:00.003+01:00

Itu la pertanyaan yang kerap kali ditanya pd saya bila diaorg tahu yg saya tgh sambung belajar lagi.

Mencabar in bracket susah. Actually, org lain yg selalu tnya mesti guna perkataan susah instead of mencabar. Perkataan susah tu nampak negative sngt, tp bila tukar kpd mencabar, baru nampak positive sikit. Dan, saya selagi boleh tak nak katakan benda tu susah. Ianya tak susah pun, cuma memerlukan kesabaran yg tinggi dan semangat yang kuat utk melaksanakan tanggungjwb yg diamanahkan oleh ALLAH.

Kalau ada sesiapa kata tk mencabar, nampak sngt membohongnya kan? The truth is memangla mencabar. Nak-nak lagi bila ank masih baby lagi, baru 4 bulan 3 mnggu, masih menyusu badan 'agak sepenuhnya'( tak dpt nk kata sepenuhnya sbb dah dua kali bagi formula milk masa kat Taska =( ) dan masih dijaga sendiri; hantar taska baru 2 kali. Huhu. Sudah bersuami, mestilah kena layan suami, makan, minum, pakaian etc. Tapi kalau belum kahwin pulak, cabarannya tentulah berbezakan? Yang tu saya dah rasa masa undergrad dan buat masters. Tak byk benda nak fikirkn or risaukan,can totally concentrate on study!
B A H A G I A? Tentulah tapi seriously, takkan rasa sebahagia bila dah kahwin dan punya anak! Rasa bahagia skrg lebih bermakna sebab kita boleh sharing cabaran even sweeter, the victory with suami/isteri dan anak-anak selain drpd parents kita!

Motivasi saya telah kembali semula! Alhamdulillah...Tp saya sedar dan amat mengenali diri saya berkenaan hal2 motivasi diri ni. Hubungan motivasi dan saya ibarat roller-coaster! Cuma satu saya pinta dr Ilahi; "tetapkanlah hati ini untuk terus beruasaha dan berkatilah setiap apa yg saya lakukan". Amiiiin. Buat sahabat2 lain (Eno, En Affandi, Liza, Wani, Anas, Syarfa, Suriana, Omar, Hairol Jabbar) yg turut sama berjuang di landasan PhD ni dan yg akn menyusul tidak lama lg (Fizah Mahri, Izza, Nini, Yati, Ansar, Shirley, K.Fizah, Vicki dan lain2 lagi), semoga kita semua dikuatkan semangat dan iltizam utk menyudahkan pengajian dgn seribu satu kejayaan!!! Amiiiiiin! NB:Sungguhpun seperti roller-coaster, saya akan cuba hadapi dengan senyuman!=)

Picture source: Internet and own's collection

Saya Down…=(

2010-07-21T05:18:00.002+01:00

Ribut mana ntah yg dtg menjengah semalam, saya tetiba rasa down! Dr. motivasi pergi conference kat oversea agaknya sbb tu lah saya tetiba hilang arah sekejap! Prof da bgtaw clearly what should I do first tp bila saya study previous student (kini merangkap sbg co-SV) punya kerja, saya terus jd down and demotivated!

Anida, stop comparing yourself with others!

Prof Fauzi ckp, sepanjang perjalanan buat PhD ni, pasti kita akan menangis. Dia sendiri mengaku yg diapun menangis. Tp aku, awal2 perjalanan pun da menangis dah! Huhu =((. En. Hubby saya sngtla memahami. Boleh baca riak muka saya yg sngt berubah (walaupun saya cuba mengawalnya sebaik mungkin dr kelihatan di wajah ni). Bbrpa kali tnya, saya ok ke tak? Saya sangaaatlaa tdk ok abg! Huhu.

Mlm td, En. Hubby memotivatekan saya semula...Lega rasanya slps dpt meluahkan dan berkongsi apa yg saya rasakan..fikirkan dgn En. Hubby tersayang...TQ by! Moral support dr abg, akn menguatkn lg langkah kaki ini! Bila lihat muka fahim (buah hatiku), saya cuba bangkit semula dr perasaan negative ini...Umi akn berusaha syg!

Anida, Ingat balik matlamat asalmu!

New Idea?

2010-07-19T01:13:00.002+01:00

At the end of the class, Prof Fauzi gave us the assignment. 2 pages worth of new idea! It can be anything; we can write or even draw to portray the concept of the new idea! He explained 1 example: "Bendable concrete".

The idea was formed back then in '92 by his SV and later on became a reality around 2002. After his SV proposed this topic to be as a PhD research, none of them care and brave enough to take that challenge. Why? Because they thought it was impossible to do that and it was like gambling your life to do something that would not worth you anything at the end of the PhD journey !

O K….--> New Idea. Pleaaaaseeee,…..come to me…ßboleh ke mcmni?

picture source: Internet

C E M A S!

2010-07-17T21:57:00.002+01:00

Punyalah cemas kami dibuatnya! Cari punya cari punya cari, tp x jumpa! Aku minta abg stay dgn fahim, biar aku ygg cari! Lihat muka abg, walaupun dia cuba berlagak tenang, namun riak cemas tetap ada.. Rasa bersalah sangat! Aku yg beria-ia mengajak abg pi Floria festival di Putrajaya, alih-alih jadi mcmni! Ya Allah, sgt rasa bersalah sampaikan aku rasa nak menangis masa tu jugak! Tengok pula Fahim dalam stroller yg terlena nyenyak, menambahkn lagi rasa kasihan dan bersalah aku pd si kecil itu…Umi dia yg beria-ia sngt nk tgok bunga-bunga, Fahimnya terpaksala ikut sama! huhu

Aku minta lg abg tekan button alarm sound supaya senang kami nk locate arah. Tapi cubaan demi cubaan abg, tk mndtgkn hasil. Tak dengar apa2-pun! Menyirap darah gemuruh aku! Aku yg dah memang gelabah, bertambah-tambah jadinya! Tp abg x mati akal, dlm kerisauan dia cuba mengawal keadaan, bersikap tenang dan sangat la professional klu nk dibandingkan dgn keadaan aku masa tu!

Abg memanjangkan leher melihat sekeliling. "Tunggu sini dgn Fahim. Abg nak tengok arah sana". Aku angguk, akur.

Abg balik semula dgn senyuman. Aku? Aku apa lagi, rasa nk peluk laki aku time tu jgk!

"Kat sana la yang". Huwaaaaaaaa, lega gila aku dgr! Ingatkan ben-10 kene r****k! Tak sanggup nk sebut perkataan ituh! Nauzubillah!

Moral of the story : Lain kali, klu park kereta, cam betul2 tempatnya especially bila keluar time malam2! huhu

ben-10: is my hubby's precious car's nickname…hehe

Fahim Amzar...Umi rindu kamu!

2010-07-16T01:21:00.002+01:00

Ya Allah, betapa rindunya aku kat dia, si kecil yg masih belum mengenal dosa, si kecil yg masih tidak mengetahui apa-apa ttg dunia luar, si kecil yang aku kandung dan bawa selama 38 minggu dan 5 hari!

Sob3...Buat kali keduanya, aku n hubby hntar Fahim ke taska. Sepertimana kali pertama dulu, berjurai-jurai air mata aku jatuh masa dlm kereta. Walaupun aku punya kesempatan untuk menjaga Fahim sehingga umur dia 4 bulan lebih, tp still sayang ibu pd anaknya menyebabkan amat sukar utk aku melepaskan dia. Hubby kata aku sbg uminya perlu kuatkan semangat! BETUL! Hubby kata lagi, akukan tgh smbung belajar, bukannya aku bazirkan masa buat perkara yg sia-sia. BETUL! Dan hubby cuba menceriakan aku dgn kata-kata perangsang yg lain.( Terima kasih abang!) Moral support dr hubby mmg amat diperlukan tetapi kesedihan aku melepaskan anak sendiri pd jagaan org lain tidak akan hilang sebegitu mudah!

Perkara yg paling aku tekankan pd teacher td ialah supaya tengok2kan Fahim selalu takut2 dia terjaga sbbnya dia tgh tidur masa aku tnggalkan tadi. Sejak dah bijak meniarap ni, bangun tidur jer, klu terlambat dalam seminit nk jengok dia, confirm da meniarap dah. Aku cuma risau bab muka dia tu. Fahim suka sngt licking permukaan lantai ke, tilam ke, apa2 lah yg ada kat bawah dia. Satu lagi, of course la psl safety dia. ? Ya Allah, KAU lindungilah anak ku dari sebarang bahaya dan kecuaian manusia. Amiiiiin!

Mcmmana la reaksi Fahim bila bangun tidur nnt. Celik mata, bukannya umi dia yg dtg tp stranger! Huhu, ciannya buah hati umi ni. Sob3...Last time hantar, dia da bangun, hisap2 penumbuk tgn dia tu. Masa tu, serah kat teacher, x takutpun, nangis pun tak. But this time, since he gains ability to flip his body, is there any possibility that his brain also developing to some extent; that he can now differentiate between familiar faces and strangers? Since, hari ni aku ada kelas dr jam 5 hingga 8mlm, bermakna dekat 13 jam lebih aku takkan ketemu buah hati aku ni! LAMANYAAAAAAAAA! Huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! Ya Allah, berikan aku kekuatan Ya Allah. Berikan aku kekuatan Ya Allah. Berikanlah aku kekuatan...

Fahim Amzar, masa tanpamu di sisi umi, akan umi gunakan sebaik yg mungkin! Tetapi yg pasti dan akan selalu ada sungguhpun kamu berada dekat sekali dgn umi ialah RINDU!
Umi
RINDU
kamu! Always....

RM oh RM!

2010-07-15T17:47:00.001+01:00

Bukan wang yang aku peningkan!!....TETAPI kelas...yaa kelas RM...Research Methodology....hukhuk

Kelas mula jam 5pm until 8pm and yg 'bestnya' hari Jumaat lak tu! Dulu time kerja, hari Jumaat laa aku tunggu sbb nak 'chow' dr UTHM balik KL jumpa hubby..Mujurlaa skrg da live together-gether...Mmg trend kat Msiakan, kelas post-grad ni buat time-time mcmni? Masa aku kt QMUL dulu, kelas postgrad buat 2 hari, Tue and Thurs, so sesiapa yg bekerja tu, mmg akan dapat pelepasan khas dr majikan masing2. Dah mmg majikan diaorg yg hntar, so mmg WAJIB la bagi pelepasan tu kan?

Pd pendapat aku la, bagus jugak kelas RM ni disediakan semula utk student postgrad especially kes khas mcm aku, yg dah laaaamaaa sngt berehat dari belajar ni. Last kelas RM yg aku pergi bulan Okt last year. Anjuran UKM gak. Nsb baik Unit Cuti Belajar luluskan application aku utk join sbbnya, dia org akan minta staf join RM course yg dikonduk oleh UTHM jgk! Tp pd aku la, best lg kot join RM course yg dianjurkan oleh university lain.

Sebabnya, 1. Dpt suasana baru! UKM buat kursus RM kat Concorde Inn, Sepang. Makanannya sngt heaven utk aku yg tgh mengandungkan Fahim Amzar masa tu 2. Dpt kenal kwn baru. Aku jumpa org yg sama profesion mcm aku tp bidang yg berbeza-beza. 3. Dpt jumpa Prof2 yg kita x pernah kenalpun 4. Bila time present, tkde la nk malu2 sngt sbb present dpn org yg kita kenal sekali tu je, in case klu salah ckp, da x jumpa lagi dah lepas tu, melainkan klu ada jodoh tuk ketemu...hehehe

Dan utk kelas esok ni, aku baru perasan yg Prof yg akan mengajar aku sok adalah Prof yg sama jadi panel time aku present kursus RM di Concorde Inn. Aku sure la dia tak leh nk cam aku dah sbb first; last time aku agak 'muk' sikit, maklumla bwk baby dlm perut and 2^nd, ada byk lagi yg prof tu nk kene ingat selain daripada nk ingt cam muka aku ni...!=)

Motivation...Motivasi...

2010-07-14T06:55:00.002+01:00

Saya sangat gembira dapat sambung Ph.D kerana:

Dapat tinggal sama-sama dgn suami saya! =) (Slps sthun lebih PJJ..=()*
Saya dapat jaga Fahim tersayang! =) (mmuuuaaah mmmuuuaahh)*

Dapat tinggal di Bangi. Bangi sngt BEST! (banding dgn Prt Raja...huhu)*
SV saya sngt baik (so far laa...hopefully berterusan...Amiiiiin)*

Saya sudah bersedia utk belajar semula!*

Anida, jgn putus asa!

Nak Beli Ape Lagi Ye…

2010-07-13T09:28:00.002+01:00

Ada a few things yg aku nk beli utk melengkapkan lagi keperluan Ph.D ni. Antaranya, kamus elektronik. Saje nk try guna yg tu lak. Nk cari yg siap ade suara utk correct pronunciation. Selain utk aku guna, boleh gak baby Fahim guna skali! =)

Selain tu, nk beli rak buku. Tiap2 bulan mesti beli 1 or 2 buah buku tp xde tmpat nk letak nicely. Rak tu semestinya la akn digunakan utk meletak folder2 berkaitan dgn journals/articles.

What else eh?!

Oh ya, nk beli buku pasal signal processing tp blom survey lagi. Nak baca utk tmbahkan pengetahuan. Walaupun kat internet byk tp aku sebenarnya suka old-fashion sket. Huhu.

Syonotnya! Dia da boleh meniarap!=D

2010-07-12T08:55:00.004+01:00

Dalam usaha mengeluarkan tgn
Fahim cuba keluarkan tgn knn dengan menaikkn punggung setinggi yg boleh!
Umi abi, Fahim berjaya! hihi Fahim yg sngt xcited smpi menyembur2 air liur!

Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah! Tk tergambar perasaan dan naluri aku sbg seorg umi, apabila melihat buah hati pengarang jantung aku ni da bule meniarap! Tengokla cubaan-cubaan yg dia lakukan. Nasib baik kami dgr ckp org tua, jgn tolong bila baby nk cuba meniarap. Sbbnya, kita akn hargai sngt2 momen bilamana si kecil ni buat benda tu dngn usaha lelah sendiri! 2,3 hari sebelum ni mmg da nmpak dia cuba nk meniarap tp setakat mengiring ke kanan n ke kiri. Tp ptg semalam, masa aku leka di dapur, hubby jerit dari living room bagitaw yg Fahim Amzar da start angkat bahu tuk terbalikkan badan.

Hubby ckp dia x perasan yg Fahim da mcmtu sbb dok khusyuk bacakn islamic story pd Fahim. Toleh sebelah, tgok ank tgh berusaha nk meniarap! Gembira sngt sbb so far, Fahim dapat membesar dgn sihat dan tally dgn perkembangan normal baby seusia dia! So, yesterday after living for about 4 months, 8 days; Fahim can now roll over; flip over his body from back to front! Yg best tu, lepas berjaya in first try, second try dia buat sekejap je! Masa fisrt try, Fahim ada problem nk keluarkn tgn kanan. Dia mcm berhati2 sngt tp in his 2nd try, jd cepat sbb dia da tahu cara! I personally think that he is a fast-learner!

This was the best reward 4 me! Sbbnya, Fahim demam selsema lepas hntr dia ke nursery dan dia agak meragamlah sampaikan aku n hubby pun turut sama dijangkiti virus tu dr dia! So smlm bila kami semua sembuh sikit, Fahim berikn 'hadiah' brmakna ni buat kami! TQ syg, umi n abi tersaaangaaaatla gembira! Sbnrya, awal2 aku risau sikit sbb Fahim lebih suka nk belajar duduk terus! Asal pangku dia mcm style nk nyusu, dia mulalah tolak badan dia ke depan, bila pangku duduk pulak, dia mula pula hayunkan bdn ke depan ke belakang smpai buat aku terpikir, dia x brminat nk meniarap ke? Bila time baring, dia cuba tolak badan dia ke atas mcm kita nk bangun dr baring tu! Haiisyyhhh, mcm2 kan Fahim ni!?

Tapi, bila tgok Fahim da meniarap ni, umi x kisah dah klu Fahim nk belajar duduk pula lepas ni! =D

Perjalanan Sudahpun Bermula!

2010-07-09T22:51:00.002+01:00

Semalam dah jumpa SV so bermakna, secara rasminya semalam dah bermulalah perjalanan rasmi aku sebagai pelajar PhD. Secara x rasmi dah lama bermula sebelum aku preggy lagi tapi masa tu org kata not in a serious move laaa. huhu. Boleh pula mcm tu ek?

Aku sebenarnya cuba nak propose tajuk sendiri tapi SV mcm x berapa nak setuju walaupun dia cakap dia open untuk bincang dengan aku. To me, dia lebih suka kalau aku buat tajuk yang dia cadangkan. Aku bukannya x nak buat tajuk dia, cuma aku nak cuba dulu dengan tajuk aku sendiri. So, prof minta aku beri time-frame bila aku boleh tunjukkan hasil daripada perbincangan aku dengan dia berkenaan tajuk yg aku propose tu. Max period, within 2 weeks la, tu tempoh yg terbaik aku boleh bagi sbb akupun x nak drag masa byk sngt nanti aku gak yang rugi!

Kalau aku nilai pro n con antara tajuk sendiri n tajuk SV, bnyk benda yg aku kene buat if aku insist tuk buat tajuk sendiri sedangkan tajuk SV tu, aku da bule mulakan experiment kat hospital! Bak kate prof, tajuk aku tu at least memerlukan ground study from 3 to 6 months and dia sendiri x boleh nak guide bnyk since bidang tu di luar daripada usual works dia. Okay, part yg x boleh nk guide byk tu la yg aku x brapa nk suka tu. Sebabnya, klu dia boleh guide byk2, tkdela aku jadi mcm anak ayam kehilangan ibunya! Apa gunanya istilah SV klu dia x supervise n guide dgn baikkan?

Fahim oh Fahim!

2010-07-06T03:20:00.002+01:00

Semalam mencatat sejarah peribadi aku. Buat pertama kalinya aku berpisah dgn permata jantung aku, Muhammad Fahim Amzar setelah hidup bersama selama 4 bulan 1 hari! huhu. Ikutkan hati, nak je kelek fahim ke mana aku pergi tapi maafkan umi sayang, umi ada tnggungjwb lain yg perlu digalasi. Walaumcmnapun, Fahim dan abi Fahim tetap menjadi priority dlm hidup umi!(^_^). Terfikir gak aku mcmnala ibu-ibu lain yg dah masuk bekerja sebaik shj cuti bersalin 2 bulan tu tamat! Tabahnya mereka semua tu!

Org ckp, ank lelaki ni kuat menyusu. Aku x pasti sejauh mana 'kuatnya' Fahim menyusu sampailah semalam, owner taska tu beritahu"Nida, pam susu byk sikit yee. Fahim ni kuat sangat menyusu!" Huhu. Buat pertama kalinya jgk, Fahim minum formula milk. Aku n hubby mmg da standby setin Enfalac takut2 Fahim demand lebih. Minta maafla anak umi syg, hasrat nak buat exclusive breastfeed tidak kesampaian di sbbkan susu bdn umi ni berkurangan lately. 5 botol susu perah:2 botol susu formula utk tempoh 11jam, total dlm 35 oz. Kuat jgk anak aku ni menyusu rupanya....tu belum kira dia balik rumah aku bagi direct feeding and nursing him till late!

Paling menggembirakan hati bila dengar owner taska tu puji Fahim. Alhamdulillah. Lega sangat dengar. Fahim dengar cakap aku rupanya. Walaupun dia baby lagi, tapi naluri ibu yg suka menasihat anak, sudahpun aku praktikkan pd Fahim. Fahim; yg memahami; yg bijaksana. Sebagaimana maksud nama diberi,seperti itu jugalah yg umi harapkn dr mu wahai anakku! Mudah-mudahan Fahim berterusan baik di taska sana ya! Amiiiiiiiin!

Disebabkn stok susu yg semakin berkurangan, aku da google mcmna nk increase milk supply ni. Too many options tp maybe aku ambil yg paling mudah utk aku gunakan. Heard about Feenugreek's benefit, so maybe i'll consider to buy it! Fahim syg, umi akn berusaha ke arah exclusive BF yaaa! And need to add more protein in my diet plan. Actually, x diet pun sbb perut ni asyik lapar je. Org tua kata, menyusukan budak mmg kuat makan. Anyway, still kena jg badan supaya fit and sihat selalukan? Nk dptkn balik berat bdn dulu; which is 46kg(before pregnant), teramatlaa impossible! So, yg berat skrg ni la(51-54kg) kene maintain supaya x obes! Dulu punyala susah nk gain weight tp skrg, asal mkn byk jer, berat dr 51kg boleh terus mencanak naik 54kg dlm masa seminggu lebih! Mmg kena alert selalu!=p

So, today, Fahim stays with me, x hantar taska. Merayu kat hubby minta Fahim stay. Lagipun, daftar kat Fakulti esok, so harini lepak2 rumah sambil nk baca proposal Ph.D yg telah lama ditinggalkn; adalah dekat 5 bulan. Mak aiihh lamakan?! Ya Allah ya tuhanku, permudahkanlah urusan kehidupanku dan hari akhiratku! Semoga aku dapat memikul setiap tnggjwb yg diamanahkan dengan cemerlang! Amin amin Ya rabbal A'lamin...

Hybernation Ends!

2010-06-23T15:18:00.004+01:00

Yezzzaaa! Finally, my 'hybernation' period is ended now! I'm back in action. >_< Lama gila x update blog. My dearie blog, I'm so sorry that I could not entertain you for the past..(am counting..last written here July'09 till June'10...that would make...emmm..11 months)..WHAT, 11 months...?! Ok, that's really a shocking figure I must say!

So what happened 2 me during that time?! (Ada ke org nk tahu? haha..Anyway, "ada aku kisah?"<--kasar la bahasa ni, saje nk test, kesimpulannya, x syukeee..) Briefly, I was pregnant, gave birth to a cute baby boy named Muhammad Fahim Amzar(>_<), been thru confinement period and survived successfully (did I?) and am taking unpaid leave for another 2 months (which is going to be ended this June) just to look after my precious one!

Good news is: I'm getting better in parenting skills! get to spend lots n lots of time with my baby Fahim; 4 months in a row, how i wish i could get more...=(. Living with my hubby 'together gether' (<-- this is wrong ok?)for about 5 months now and another 3 years to come (I'm going to study in UKM Bangi)!YeaY!!! How happy n delightful I am at the moment! Alhamdulillah!

Anyhow, the real test will begin this July. I'm going to be a student again! Right now, I'm thinking how can I juggle study and family at the same time? I mean, we're now three; there's a baby that needs 200% attention and love along the time! Ya ALLAH, give me strength to overcome any obstacles ahead!

At this point, I do think that time management is really important!!!

Okie dokie, here r some pictures of my precious baby. (>_<). njoy =)

July, 26 2009...Majlis Kesyukuran

2009-08-26T04:13:00.004+01:00

Please Stay.....

2009-05-14T05:08:00.005+01:00

Estrella-Stay lyrics

Dedicate this song to my hubby...Stay by Estrella.

Life is harsh, sometimes.... but most of the times, it's sweet, beautiful and charming if you look at positive sides. Never let ourselves break the connection with the Almighty, that's the rule of thumb.

Anyway, I just love this song, so sweeeeeeettt! And it suits very well with my current situation...

"Please stay...", that's the line I'll use in the end of week to my dearest hubby. Some of you would already knew that we are practicing what they usually call it as "PJJ: Perhubungan Jarak Jauh". As for now, we can only be patient and think positive. I'm working in Batu Pahat and he is in KL. Distance is merely a measurement between one place and another but it's the unseen connection that ties us together....Wahahaha, what a romantic line coming genuinely from the bottom of my heart....

Loyalty is another attribute that will make any relationship stays longer. To my sweet hubby; we both know it's difficult not to live together but we do believe when that time comes, it will be the sweetest thing happen to our life! All these are the tests from Allah. And as I promised to you, I don't want to be a crybaby, I'll become stronger than any wives in this world! You can count on my promises!(^*^)

Lyrics-Stay by Estrella

Sounds straight from the twilight
Has me up all night I can’t
Fall asleep coz I keep thinking of you
And I saw a shadow, outside my window
And it’s you!

c/o
All my sorrows flew away,
Hush keep quiet hear me say
I don’t ever want you to go
Please stay

With the moonlight dancing free
And there’s no one but you and me
There’s no reason to go astray
Please stay

-bridge
Making up a story
It’s the way you’re looking at me
If you think that this is funny
It’s just you

Try and think about it
If your heart is closed don’t lock it
Keep your keys back in your pocket, think this through

Repeat c/o

Iljimae...my new crushing drama!YEAY!

2009-05-06T10:56:00.006+01:00

I first watched Lee Jun Ki in My Girl. At that time, he wasn't the lead actor though I did hope he would end up with the heroin, Yoo Rin(Lee Da Hae)...urmmmmmm, any objections on that?hehe...I understand that most of the My Girl's fan would rather choose Gong Chan(Lee Dong Wook)over Jun Ki...am i right?

Speaking about Korean dramas, ever since I landed myself in Bolehland, I don't hv pretty much time to watch any latest Korean dramas/movies(since I don't have an internet connection at home i'm becoming slower and outdated, believe me!) and lately, I found the selection of Korean dramas broadcast on air were quite bored until 8TV do a good job by putting the Il Ji Mae! YeaY!!!

I love the storyline(a Robinhood drama look-alike but...in a Korean style, that's how I conclude it), eventhough it's not twisted here n there and you can even predict what will happen next! Nevertheless, to me, it's because of the way Jun Ki live up the character!It's fresh and honest!Jun Ki was quite 'girlish' back then when he was in My Girl but in Il Ji Mae, he has transformed to be sooo manly! You go MAN!

And another thing I do enjoy the most is the Il Ji Mae's soundtrack!One of my fav is "A Flower's Message(Hwa Shin)" sang by Park Hyo Shin, to me this is the sweetest song among all, "(In Yun) sang by Woong San, Lonely Footsteps(this melody will be played when Jun Ki is sad,flashback his painful childhood memories...I just love this soundtrack since it's so touching and very inspiring...!) and Plum Blossom(can be heard when he's watching the plum blossom or when he is with the Eun Chae<--I think I spell the name correctly..). There are loads of other beautiful songs in the soundtrack and I bet you would enjoy them as much as I do!
To tear-easy girls out there who haven't watched this drama, just prepare the tissues, will ya?

Sahabat, Kawan, Teman....Titik Persamaan?

2009-04-23T04:00:00.003+01:00

Berkawan biar seribu, berkasih biar satu. Tagline yg cukup glamer digunakan semasa aku sekolah dulu. Menariknya berkawan sebab kita boleh kenal pelbagai ragam manusia. Ada yg boleh diterima dan ada yg tidak. Perangai dan personaliti yg membezakan setiap kawan2 yg ada di sekeliling kita. Antara sahabat, kawan, teman dan rakan mana satu ungkapan yang kita suka dan biasa digunakan?

Maksudnya sama tapi identitinya mungkin berbeza. Itu pendapat peribadi aku. Tafsiran sahabat bagi aku adalah untuk mereka yg benar2 memupuk hubungan dua insan atau lebih menjadi satu hubungan yg mempunyai nilai setiakawan yg tinggi. Susah dan senang bersama. Tidak melihat sahabat itu sebagai objek untuk dikuasai. Tidak memandang rendah dan tidak memalukan sahabat itu dihadapan org lain. Tidak menggunakan perkataan yg boleh mengguris hati. Berlawak dan berkata-kata secara berpada. Sentiasa mengambil berat. Dan yang paling penting, KEBAIKAN YG DIBERIKAN iTu TIDAK BERSIFAT KEPURA-PURAAN atau biasa dilabelkan sebagai HIPOKRIT!

Siapa yg suka dgn sikap hipokrit?Aku berpendapat, Sahabat yg HIPOKRIT adalah bukan sahabat. Dia boleh diibaratkan seperti angin yg datang tidak diundang, dan kemudian memberikan kenyamanan sebelum berlalu meninggalkan kita kembali dengan rasa bahang yg membakar kulit dek kerana teriknya sang mentari! ITU, analogi yg aku berikan utk org seperti ini. Argghhh, benci pd sifat itu!

Bersifat seperti sahabat bukanlah suatu perkara yg datangnya secara paksa. Ia lahir dari dalaman, ia terbit dr hati. Ia adalah satu perasaan yg indah yg memacu seseorg itu untuk berperilaku dan bertindak seadanya mengikut lunas-lunas tertentu. Sahabat itu akan dianggap seperti kakak atau adik sendiri. Bukankah kita sanggup berkorban demi darah daging yg sama? Tapi masih adakah org sebegitu? Kita terlalu pentingkan diri sendiri. Tiada kasih sayang maka tiadalah tali persaudaraan.

Tapi aku kira terlalu byk perkara yg menyebabkan kualiti seorang sahabat itu sangat sukar utk ditemui. Aku berpendapat kita sebenarnya TAKUT....takut untuk jadi seperti itu kerana kita takut kita akan dilukai sesudah memberikan sepenuh kepercayaan. Dilukakan oleh org yg kita anggap sebagai sahabat (dan sahabat itu telah dianggap sebagai kakak atau adik!) ibarat pedang tajam yang ditusuk ke jantung secara perlahan-lahan. Sakitnya dirasakan di setiap inci tubuh badan sehinggakan badan bergetar kuat menahan sakit itu! Pedihkan??!

Aku tidak tahu apa pendapat org lain pd aku dalam konteks sahabat ini kerana aku belum berjumpa seseorg yg mampu jadi seperti itu. Kerana 'tune' yg berbeza, aku belum dapat JADI seperti itu kerana secara jujurnya, aku juga takut utk dilukai. Kebiasaan yg aku dgr, rakan2 disekelilingku mengambil pendekatan mudah. "Klu tkde kawan, boleh hidup dgn sendiri". "Aku bukan jenis suka diikat. Klu nk kawan dgn org lain aku x kisah". Girls, don't you get it??! You are lying to yourself! You are actually protecting yourself from being hurting inside! Loose a bit!

Sahabat tidak mengongkong dan sahabat tidak mengikat! Sahabat memberikan ruang privacy apabila diminta dgn baik. Sahabat bersikap adil dan tidak mahu menyusahkan! Sahabat berterus terang apabila kita melakukan kesilapan!Sahabat tidak menunjukkan dirinya lebih hebat, lebih pandai dan lebih dari segala2nya. Kerana sahabat tahu batas2nya...kerana sahabat MENGHORMATI.

A sweet gift from a Lovely HubbY!

2009-04-15T05:19:00.007+01:00

Last Sunday wasn't just an ordinary Sunday. It was our first solemnisation anniversary (since we haven't done our wedding reception..yet...hoh0). The wedding reception should be on 31st May 2009 but unfortunately, we have to postpone it to July, 26 2009. The reason is my father-in-law will not be around on that particular date! He has to attend a 1 month training in US. However, it just came to my knowledge that he also has to KIV his training to September but at this moment, my hubby n I have to stick with the second date. No time to change it to the original setting. Huhu.

Okie dokie, time is so crucial now. I just received a letter from the Registrar mentioned that my 6-month period as a Tutor will be ended on 30th April. If I have no valid reason why I still have not further my PhD study, they're going to terminate my service. Wohohoho, it's just easier to say than done. For the past 6 months, I was trying to find supervisorS who willingly to take me as their PhD student but since then, I wasn't received positive feedback from them.

On second thought, I wondered if let say, they terminate my service, do i have to pay the scholarship back? Do I hv a chance to apply the same position to other universities; UTEM or UPNM?(since these universities are not so far from the so-called land; Selangor Maju; my dearest state! hehe) Will my Dean let me go from this university which had kept soo many bitter n sweet memories as a student here and now serving as a Tutor?huhu. Did I just meet with a job-conflict? ohoho, I need to stop my writing here. Let my mind swirl with these questions in my head....In the meantime, below are several cupcakes that I ordered from Lina. This is to suprise my hubby and believe me, it works! He was so excited when I hand in this to him! This set of cupcakes symbolise our relationship and things that we love to do together! Enjoy!

London Red Bus

Sweet bees

the lovely cupcakes!

Dahsyatnya Proses Sakaratul Maut

2009-02-19T05:49:00.000Z

* Grabbed it from my email inbox. Do spread around!

"Demi Allah, seandainya jenazah yang sedang kalian tangisi bisa berbicara sekejab, lalu menceritakan (pengalaman sakaratul mautnya) pada kalian, niscaya kalian akan melupakan jenazah tersebut, dan mulai menangisi diri kalian sendiri". (Imam Ghozali mengutip atsar Al-Hasan).

Datangnya Kematian Menurut Al Qur'an :

1. Kematian bersifat memaksa dan siap menghampiri manusia walaupun kita berusaha menghindarkan resiko-resiko kematian.
Katakanlah: "Sekiranya kamu berada di rumahmu, niscaya orang-orang yang telah ditakdirkan akan mati terbunuh itu ke luar (juga) ke tempat mereka terbunuh". Dan Allah (berbuat demikian) untuk menguji apa yang ada dalam dadamu dan untuk membersihkan apa yang ada dalam hatimu. Allah Maha Mengetahui isi hati. (QS Ali Imran, 3:154)

2. Kematian akan mengejar siapapun meskipun ia berlindung di balik benteng yang kokoh atau berlindung di balik teknologi kedokteran yang canggih serta ratusan dokter terbaik yang ada di muka bumi ini.
Di mana saja kamu berada, kematian akan mendapatkan kamu, kendati pun kamu di dalam benteng yang tinggi lagi kokoh, dan jika mereka memperoleh kebaikan, mereka mengatakan: "Ini adalah dari sisi Allah", dan kalau mereka ditimpa sesuatu bencana mereka mengatakan: "Ini (datangnya) dari sisi kamu (Muhammad)". Katakanlah: "Semuanya (datang) dari sisi Allah". Maka mengapa orang-orang itu (orang munafik) hampir-hampir tidak memahami pembicaraan sedikit pun? (QS An-Nisa 4:78)

3. Kematian akan mengejar siapapun walaupun ia lari menghindar.
Katakanlah: "Sesungguhnya kematian yang kamu lari daripadanya, maka sesungguhnya kematian itu akan menemui kamu, kemudian kamu akan dikembalikan kepada (Allah), yang mengetahui yang gaib dan yang nyata, lalu Dia beritakan kepadamu apa yang telah kamu kerjakan". (QS al-Jumu'ah, 62:8)

4. Kematian datang secara tiba-tiba.
Sesungguhnya Allah, hanya pada sisi-Nya sajalah pengetahuan tentang Hari Kiamat; dan Dia-lah Yang menurunkan hujan, dan mengetahui apa yang ada dalam rahim. Dan tiada seorang pun yang dapat mengetahui (dengan pasti) apa yang akan diusahakannya besok. Dan tiada seorang pun yang dapat mengetahui di bumi mana dia akan mati. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Mengenal. (QS, Luqman 31:34)

5. Kematian telah ditentukan waktunya, tidak dapat ditunda atau dipercepat
Dan Allah sekali-kali tidak akan menangguhkan (kematian) seseorang apabila datang waktu kematiannya. Dan Allah Maha Mengetahui apa yang kamu kerjakan. (QS, Al-Munafiqun, 63:11)

Dahsyatnya Rasa Sakit Saat Sakaratul Maut

Sabda Rasulullah SAW : "Sakaratul maut itu sakitnya sama dengan tusukan tiga ratus pedang" (HR Tirmidzi)
Sabda Rasulullah SAW : "Kematian yang paling ringan ibarat sebatang pohon penuh duri yang menancap di selembar kain sutera. Apakah batang pohon duri itu dapat diambil tanpa membawa serta bagian kain sutera yang tersobek ?" (HR Bukhari)

Atsar (pendapat) para sahabat Rasulullah SAW .
Ka'b al-Ahbar berpendapat : "Sakaratul maut ibarat sebatang pohon berduri yang dimasukkan kedalam perut seseorang. Lalu, seorang lelaki menariknya dengan sekuat-kuatnya sehingga ranting itupun membawa semua bagian tubuh yang menyangkut padanya dan meninggalkan yang tersisa".

Imam Ghozali berpendapat : "Rasa sakit yang dirasakan selama sakaratul maut menghujam jiwa dan menyebar ke seluruh anggota tubuh sehingga bagian orang yang sedang sekarat merasakan dirinya ditarik-tarik dan dicerabut dari setiap urat nadi, urat syaraf, persendian, dari setiap akar rambut dan kulit kepala hingga kaki".

Imam Ghozali juga mengutip suatu riwayat ketika sekelompok Bani Israil yang sedang melewati sebuah pekuburan berdoa pada Allah SWT agar Ia menghidupkan satu mayat dari pekuburan itu sehingga mereka bisa mengetahui gambaran sakaratul maut. Dengan izin Allah melalui suatu cara tiba-tiba mereka dihadapkan pada seorang pria yang muncul dari salah satu kuburan. "Wahai manusia !", kata pria tersebut. "Apa yang kalian kehendaki dariku? Limapuluh tahun yang lalu aku mengalami kematian, namun hingga kini rasa perih bekas sakaratul maut itu belum juga hilang dariku."

Proses sakaratul maut bisa memakan waktu yang berbeda untuk setiap orang, dan tidak dapat dihitung dalam ukuran detik seperti hitungan waktu dunia ketika kita menyaksikan detik-detik terakhir kematian seseorang. Mustafa Kemal Attaturk, bapak modernisasi (sekularisasi) Turki, yang mengganti Turki dari negara bersyariat Islam menjadi negara sekular, dikabarkan mengalami proses sakaratul maut selama 6 bulan (walau tampak dunianya hanya beberapa detik), seperti dilaporkan oleh salah satu keturunannya melalui sebuah mimpi.

Rasa sakit sakaratul maut dialami setiap manusia, dengan berbagai macam tingkat rasa sakit, ini tidak terkait dengan tingkat keimanan atau kezhaliman seseorang selama ia hidup. Sebuah riwayat bahkan mengatakan bahwa rasa sakit sakaratul maut merupakan suatu proses pengurangan kadar siksaan akhirat kita kelak. Demikianlah rencana Allah. Wallahu a'lam bis shawab.

Sakaratul Maut Orang-orang Zhalim

Imam Ghozali mengutip sebuah riwayat yang menceritakan tentang keinginan Ibrahim as untuk melihat wajah Malaikatul Maut ketika mencabut nyawa orang zhalim.. Allah SWT pun memperlihatkan gambaran perupaan Malaikatul Maut sebagai seorang pria besar berkulit legam, rambut berdiri, berbau busuk, memiliki dua mata, satu didepan satu dibelakang, mengenakan pakaian serba hitam, sangat menakutkan, dari mulutnya keluar jilatan api, ketika melihatnya Ibrahim as pun pingsan tak sadarkan diri. Setelah sadar Ibrahim as pun berkata bahwa dengan memandang wajah Malaikatul Maut rasanya sudah cukup bagi seorang pelaku kejahatan untuk menerima ganjaran hukuman kejahatannya, padahal hukuman akhirat Allah jauh lebih dahsyat dari itu.

Kisah ini menggambarkan bahwa melihat wajah Malakatul Maut saja sudah menakutkan apalagi ketika sang Malaikat mulai menyentuh tubuh kita, menarik paksa roh dari tubuh kita, kemudian mulai menghentak-hentak tubuh kita agar roh (yang masih cinta dunia dan enggan meninggalkan dunia) lepas dari tubuh kita ibarat melepas akar serabut-serabut baja yang tertanam sangat dalam di tanah yang terbuat dari timah keras.

Itulah wajah Malaikatul Maut yang akan mendatangi kita kelak dan memisahkan roh dari tubuh kita. Itulah wajah yang seandainya kita melihatnya dalam mimpi sekalipun maka kita tidak akan pernah lagi bisa tertawa dan merasakan kegembiraan sepanjang sisa hidup kita.

Alangkah dahsyatnya sekiranya kamu melihat di waktu orang-orang yang zalim (berada) dalam tekanan-tekanan sakratulmaut, sedang para malaikat memukul dengan tangannya, (sambil berkata): "Keluarkanlah nyawamu". Di hari ini kamu dibalas dengan siksaan yang sangat menghinakan, karena kamu selalu mengatakan terhadap Allah (perkataan) yang tidak benar dan (karena) kamu selalu menyombongkan diri terhadap ayat-ayat-Nya. (QS Al-An'am 6:93)
(Yaitu) orang-orang yang dimatikan oleh para malaikat dalam keadaan berbuat lalim kepada diri mereka sendiri, lalu mereka menyerah diri (sambil berkata); "Kami sekali-kali tidak mengerjakan sesuatu kejahatan pun". (Malaikat menjawab): "Ada, sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui apa yang telah kamu kerjakan". Maka masukilah pintu-pintu neraka Jahanam, kamu kekal di dalamnya. Maka amat buruklah tempat orang-orang yang menyombongkan diri itu.. (QS, An-Nahl, 16 : 28-29)

Di akhir sakaratul maut, seorang manusia akan diperlihatkan padanya wajah dua Malaikat Pencatat Amal. Kepada orang zhalim, si malaikat akan berkata, "Semoga Allah tidak memberimu balasan yang baik, engkaulah yang membuat kami terpaksa hadir kami ke tengah-tengah perbuatan kejimu, dan membuat kami hadir menyaksikan perbuatan burukmu, memaksa kami mendengar ucapan-ucapan burukmu. Semoga Allah tidak memberimu balasan yang baik ! " Ketika itulah orang yang sekarat itu menatap lesu ke arah kedua malaikat itu.

Ketika sakaratul maut hampir selesai, dimana tenaga mereka telah hilang dan roh mulai merayap keluar dari jasad mereka, maka tibalah saatnya Malaikatul Maut mengabarkan padanya rumahnya kelak di akhirat. Rasulullah SAW pernah bersabda, "Tak seorangpun diantara kalian yang akan meninggalkan dunia ini kecuali telah diberikan tempat kembalinya dan diperlihatkan padanya tempatnya di surga atau di neraka".
Dan inilah ucapan malaikat ketika menunjukkan rumah akhirat seorang zhalim di neraka, "Wahai musuh Allah, itulah rumahmu kelak, bersiaplah engkau merasakan siksa neraka". Naudzu bila min dzalik!

Sakaratul Maut Orang-orang Yang Bertaqwa

Sebaliknya Imam Ghozali mengatakan bahwa orang beriman akan melihat rupa Malaikatul Maut sebagai pemuda tampan, berpakaian indah dan menyebarkan wangi yang sangat harum.

Dan dikatakan kepada orang-orang yang bertakwa: "Apakah yang telah diturunkan oleh Tuhanmu?" Mereka menjawab: "(Allah telah menurunkan) kebaikan".. Orang-orang yang berbuat baik di dunia ini mendapat (pembalasan) yang baik. Dan sesungguhnya kampung akhirat adalah lebih baik dan itulah sebaik-baik tempat bagi orang yang bertakwa, (yaitu) surga Adn yang mereka masuk ke dalamnya, mengalir di bawahnya sungai-sungai, di dalam surga itu mereka mendapat segala apa yang mereka kehendaki.. Demikianlah Allah memberi balasan kepada orang-orang yang bertakwa. (yaitu) orang-orang yang diwafatkan dalam keadaan baik oleh para malaikat dengan mengatakan (kepada mereka): "Assalamu alaikum, masuklah kamu ke dalam surga itu disebabkan apa yang telah kamu kerjakan". (QS, An-Nahl, 16 : 30-31-32)

Dan saat terakhir sakaratul mautnya, malaikatpun akan menunjukkan surga yang akan menjadi rumahnya kelak di akhirat, dan berkata padanya, "Bergembiaralah, wahai sahabat Allah, itulah rumahmu kelak, bergembiralah dalam masa-masa menunggumu".

Wallahu a'lam bish-shawab.

Semoga kita yang masih hidup dapat selalu dikaruniai hidayah-Nya, berada dalam jalan yang benar, selalu istiqomah dalam keimanan, dan termasuk umat yang dimudahkan-Nya, selama hidup di dunia, di akhir hidup, ketika sakaratul maut, di alam barzakh, di Padang Mahsyar, di jembatan jembatan Sirath-al mustaqim, dan seterusnya.
Amin !

An Agony of PhD Route -P1

2009-02-17T03:43:00.005Z

Salam and Hi All!

My blog was really outdated. I admit it. Sigh. The workload has occupied most of the time I used to spend over the Internet. Believe me! The first month I've been in Parit Raja, I was assigned to facilitate a group of students who were undergoing an INSEP programme. These 20 students(2 has dropped out) are qualified to receive the Executive Diploma in Medical Electronics as soon as they completed the industrial attachment within a few months more.

Then, the school was opened. The new term was begun. And I have to go back into reality of my job as a tutor in UTHM; be as a lab instructor. Nevertheless, it wasn't a sad moment. In fact, I pretty much enjoyed with these energetic kiddos. What's more is that, I have 1 class where all 27 students are from Somalia, SomaliLand and Republic Chad. So like it or not, I hv to use English to communicate with them. But these guys are quite good and they really eager to learn. Furthermore,they are all self-funded (I thought they hv been offered scholarships!) and that's also a reason why they are quite committed in study. However, there is still some issues here n there but I do think it will be solved eventually.

Now, I hv to be more focus on my next journey: Route to PhD. It has a massive effect on my current life. I don't want to think it as a burden but to take it as a lifetime challenge!

Comment: The Effects of Using English as the Medium of Instruction for Mathematics and Science in Primary School

2008-09-16T16:01:00.008+01:00

The first time WE heard the suggestion from the GOV to use English as a medium of instruction for Math and Science subjects, we both thought, "Oh dear!..this will definitely bring a problem afterwards...=(". It seemed to me that the Gov was desperate to improve the English usage in this country and they insisted to proceed it with these reasons in mind:
1. To strengthen the foundation of gaining the knowledge sources in Math and Science since the reference materials for both subjects are widely available in English and

2. To enhance the capability of using English and therefore mastering it as a second language

AND our early prediction now has been proven by the recent research conducted by a team of researchers from UPSI. The research entitled "The Effects of Using English as the Medium of Instruction for Mathematics and Science in Primary School" was lead by Prof Emeritus Dato' Isahak Harun. The data were established from students of standard 5 and the samples were taken from various primary schools within three main locations: city, big town and rural area.

It sadden me as I read throughout the report presented by the team. The main findings of the research revealed that the use of English as the main medium for teaching Math and Science subjects was undoubtedly, failed. Furthermore, it was found that the students especially Malay and Orang Asli were facing difficulties to understand the questions or instructions in English. The students achievement in the Math tests as depicted in the figure below was taken from the above research findings.

I don't intend to comment further on the above research findings as I believe, my blog readers are more critical thinking than I am. Nevertheless, I just want to voice out my opinion in this matter from my very own perspective.

Let me bring you guys back to the past. My next door neighbour which is happened to be my mum's 3rd cousin already married and is blessed with 2 children(and now three). Each time when I went back home for semester break, she would send, both her elder son, Akip and the little sister, Pika to my mum's house straight after finishing the Quranic class. I was asked to teach her children in Math and English homeworks. I took no bills for that as it was more like teaching your own brothers or sisters in study. So why should I charge her for that?

From time to time, I heard a loads of complaints from her husband, Usu Jelani upon the use of English in these two subjects. At that time, I tried to convince him that this is for good reason. When the semester break was over and I was back in Parit Raja, I would receive several calls from Mak Usu asking me for instance; What this instruction means: "Round of these numbers to the nearest tenth". Thank God Mak Usu finished her secondary school and at least able to read the sentences in English though not really understand the meaning. So, I tried to help to the best I could.

The situation narrated above was real as it occurred 3 years ago. I saw the struggles of Akip and little sister Pika to understand and catch up the learning pace in English-oriented system. This has low down the confidence level and study-esteem in Akip himself which eventually brought him to the state of bored; he found that Math subject was boring because he could not understand the meaning! I was not blaming him for this as he still a child and not mumayiz yet. He still couldn't differentiate which was good or bad though you already told him a few times. Therefore, interesting games(related with these subjects) always help to enlighten his spirit and boosting his hidden critical mind when studying these subjects.

Big Brother Akip with my sec sis
There will be numerous reasons why the implemented scheme proposed by the Gov couldn't achieve to the satisfactory level. However, the main reason which is close to what my neighbour has suffered is because the English usage is not practice daily within the family itself. You see, they live in kampung, so do I and therefore, I understand that without everyday practice, it's difficult to master the English. As an old saying,"Melentur buluh biar dari rebungnya" and therefore, being exposed to the daily English in early stage for example; 2 or 3 years may beneficial beforehand.

But the real issue now is: How can they being exposed to the use of English words if their parents are not mastering the language itself? And the second issue is: even the teachers are also struggling to use the English in class since all of them underwent the Bahasa system during their kiddos lives!

Contrary to expectations, the scheme should deal with realistic situation confront by the lower-class citizen. Indeed, English is vital since learning sources are mostly in English basis and is important when communicating with others. Therefore, from the standpoint of my own experience, maybe a dual-language can be used...Well, at least, it opens more flexibility in learning process. At the same time, extra English classes should be conducted from time to time. Meanwhile, teachers also should be sent to English classes frequently to brush and sharpen their knowledge though it's easy now to get the free and reliable sources of learning English via internet!

But what if for instance; The Math test results illustrated above were actually direct consequences of laziness and lack of competitiveness and self-awareness to advance own selves? To me, these are just a bunch of mere excuses created by people who believe that everyone is super-duper 101% excellent! These children need to be pushed always, give sincere motivation and also advices, not put them aside and just have a full concentration to the brilliant one!

Lat Ta Li Lat..or 0-zoom?

2008-09-16T03:55:00.002+01:00

That doesn't work for me now when making any critical decisions. Haha. Dulu2 time kecil2, klu tak main O-zoom, kene Lat Ta Li Lat laa jwbnya..tgok sapa yg kenaaaa...(^_^)..Zaman tu dah lama berlalu,zmn kanak2 yg xlah berapa nak indah tapi bermakna utk diingati...h0h0!

Anyway, it was decided that we will gonna celebrate the first Hari Raya in my husband's family house. Okay, I know I'm gonna miss the syahdu moment with my parents but thinking that I can spend the rest of the Hari Raya days with them, so why not celebrate it first in my hubby's family house?! At least, this time I am in Malaysia not like last year. Have to suffer the first day of Hari Raya in class...Sob sob sob...Very Pathetic, innit?

Yesterday, I chatted with Syarfa about Baju Kurung to be worn during Hari Raya. Speaking about Baju Kurung, I'm thinking to buy online from any online haberdashers but is it worth to do so? never try before. I found one: cemarabiru.com but it seems like there's no size for me...i'm a petite girl and therefore, size S or SS or 36 usually works best for me but the smallest size available there is 38! huhu. Hopefully, I will have enuff time to do the shopping once I return to Msia!

I just checked the UTHM email, and booked the Angpow Sampul designed by the...errr not sure, maybe the UTHM staff. Anyway, i booked for 40 pieces, rm2.50/10 pieces, very affordable price, isn't it?

We like the first and the last one!(^_^)

2008-09-15T01:49:00.003+01:00

Celoteh Bahasa: Siri 2: Tupai oh Tupai!

2008-09-15T01:38:00.005+01:00

Si Tupai!

Kat Malaysia jinak jgk kew? Selama ni, tk terhingin lak aku nk bermain2 dgn tupai2 yg slalu merobek buah durian, manggis, cempedak-nangka yg mak aku tanam dpn rumah tu...hoho, utk makluman pembaca budiman sekalian, tupai adalah musuh ketat mak aku time musim buah melanda! Hahaha. Owh, ckp psl musim buah, aritu aku rasa mcm seluruh Msia duk sebut2 musim buah masa bulan 6-7 mcm tuh termasuklaa mak aku. Baiknya mak aku, snggup simpankn 1 tupperware besar yg berisi buah durian tembaga dlm icebox tuk aku n suami aku mkn bile balik nnt...terharunya...betul2 laa mak aku nii apply prinsip: sharing is caring...

Arini aku n hubby pi Hyde Park, nk mkn x boleh kn so kita org makan angin laa...tp perut maintain x kembung yaa...hehe...On the way nk balik tu, nmpak satu couple ni dok layan tupai2 ni dgn beri biskut...tp tupai ni cam jinak2 merpati dan malu2 kucing sungguh laa...or should I change them to: Jinak2 tupai dan Malu2 tupai sungguhlaa...Eerk, buruknya peribahasa Melayu klu guna tupai?..ohoho, pencinta bahasa jgn marahkn aku...

So,aku cam geram2 gak laa tgok squirrel yg takut2 tp dekat2 mcmtu...Biskut xde bawa sbb kami puasakan so terbatal la niat nk menggoda si squirrel tu. Namun, hajat tertunai jugak bila kami berehat jap kat bangku sbb kaki aku lenguh dah berjalan. Hubby aku dok pnggil2 squirrel tu guna bunyi cam tikus bising buat sarang atas loteng. Then,ada respon baik punye dari squirrel tu. Pandang kami dan mula bergerak ke arah kami. Sambil tu, hidung dok kembang kempis, cuba hidu kami ada bawa mknn tak or sekadar nk mengacah2 jew. Haha. Mujur teringat ada beli kuih muih tadi kat Msian Hall, so dgn excited tp cuba control ayu, akupun cubit sikit kuih lapis tu. Hubby aku kata jgn campak tp sbb aku ni ada sindrom "takut jari kena gigit", maka tercampak jugaklah mknn tu atas tar jalan.

1. Meh meh, suapan kedua, meh..!

2. Sense of danger...?

Si Tupai tadipun punyalah excited, dok gigit2 mknn tuh, cutenyaa! cubitan mknn tu agak besar la klu nk dibandingkn dgn jari tupai yg comel tu so dia ambil masa dlm 7-8 saat tuk habiskan! Aduuh geramnyee aku tgok dia mkn, siap hadap muka aku lagi tuu, x lari! Tp second time aku bagi,dia mcm dpt sense aku takut kat dia, so dia pun lari bawah bngku mkn kat situ pulak. 3rd time bagi, dia cam berani pun ada, siap lompat kat bangku, minta lagi. Haha, Klakar laa tupai nii. Tapi dia mcm taw jer yg hubby aku nk ambil gmbar dia, dia hadap muka aku memula tu pastuh bile hubby aku nk snap gmbar, trus hadap hubby aku...hoho...comel2...comelnya ciptaan Ilahi...buat aku rindu betul nk main2 dgn kucing yg mak aku ternak kat umah tu...ada lah dekat 15 ekor yg berjaya hidup sehingga kini....wahahaha!

3. Alahai, comelnyaa...smngat tul makan!Look, she's looking at the camera!So clever!

Some more to share!: First Picture: First trial. Second Picture: She wants more!

Celoteh Bahasa: Siri 1: Ramadhan & Balik Kampung

2008-09-14T22:10:00.014+01:00

Okay, this time I write my blog using Bahasa Melayu. Try to write it in a proper way but seriously, I do loads of rojak here and there so, please forgive me for my bahasa rojak kay?...huhu

Ramadhan Datang Lagi...

H0h0,ni kali kedua aku jalani ibadah puasa kat sini. Mnggu pertama puasa, time tu aku tgh berada pd tahap kritikal gak laaa...Siapkn dissertation n then prepare for ViVa...ohohoho..bukan kereta ViVa itu, aku lum ade lesen lagik..hehe, tp yg dimaksudkan ialah persiapan utk mnghadapi soalan2 maut drpd penyelia aku, 2nd examiner and another external examiner. Ingtkan ada spectators, rupe2nye, hanya aku dan mereka2 yg disebutkn tadi shj yg terlibat...phew, nsb baik...!And million thanks to my hubby...tulun aku beri idea best cket bab2 buat ayat teknikal ni..Allah jua yg mampu membalas pertolongan dan pengorbanan yg tlh dilakukan !!

Mind the mind. View in front of the Queen Mary Main Building. This was shot right after completing the ViVa session!!!

Masuk mnggu kedua,adalah masa tuk aku berehat-rehat slpas penat memerah otak memikirkan cara2 nk selesaikan problem dlm projek tu...mujur masih siuman lagi...hehe. Tp cycle tidur dah tk betul daa...aku kene reset diri aku balik...mcmmana nk reset aku pun tk taw! Pagi masa tdo, mlm masa kerja? owh, owl kew?

Mnggu pertama tu, buka puasa beli luar. Owh, klu kat Msia maksud aku klu aku di Prt Raja, sure aku da pi Bazar Ramadhan kt Parit Raja tu...Mcm2 ada...tp kt sini, pilihan yg ada cukup terbatas...Bazar Ramadhan sure x delah...yg ada plng hmpir dgn umah aku, Pando's...bkn Nando's kay..Pando's jew yg ada hidang cuisine dr Msia dan ayam yg ala2 Nando's tuh..camnapun, masih x lei kalahkan mak aku bab2 masak bihun goreng nii...adeeh...Mnggu kedua ni laa br start masak2 balik...Mskn pertama sure Daging masak pedas...sebabnya: it's my fav. laa..=)

Ibadah puasa thn ni lebih dan tersngt istimewa sbb kali ni aku x puasa sbg org bujang tp sbg PUAN...ehehehe...lain rasanya...lebih bermakna hidup lebih2 lagi bab2 ibadah ni sbb ada org yg nk ingatkan dan nasihat selalu...!Owh terasa benar sungguh sabda Nabi berkenaan dgn hal2 nikah kahwin nii...Demikian jugak berkenaan dgn ibadah puasa ni..

Aku ada terbaca: Doa org2 berpuasa ni Allah makbulkan tak kira siang atau malam spnjng bulan Ramadhan dan ttg 10 mlm pertama adalah mlm rahmat, 10 mlm kedua adlh mlm pengampunan manakala 10 mlm ketiga adalah mlm lailatul qadar. So buat kwn2 semua,sebelum Ramadhan kali ini meninggalkn kita, rebutlah segala kebaikan pahala yg ada pd bulan Ramdahan ini yaa!

MAS: 26/09/08-12pm

Yahoooo...BALIK!haha, x sabo nye aku nk balik! Best sungguh dpt beraya di Msia nii! Tiket dah ditempah..bagus betul kak Noi ni, arini ckp trus tempah, besoknye da dapat itinerary! Kan bagus klu semua staf Unit Cuti Belajar(UCB) buat mcm kak Noi. "Fast & Reliable"! Mungkin UCB perlu guna tagline tuh kot baru smngat sikit semua staf utk melaksanakan kerja secepat mungkin dan penuh berdedikasi...owh, Mungkinkah?...

MH:Malaysian Hospitality: a mere theory than practical? Or the other way round?

Anyway,smlm dah calling2 parents aku...mak aku laa org plng gmbira pas dgr aku nk balik..double gembira pas dgr anak dia yg selama ni dok mengadu kat dia asyik kene buli kat sini dan takut x lepas MSc ni, akhirnya berjaya gak habiskan MSc ni dgn 1001 cabaran! Zillion thanks to mak n abah for the endless pray! Sob sob sob...Aku hanya anak yg tk punya apa2 jika tnpa doa dan restu dr mereka berdua yg sntiasa mendoakan aku semenjak aku belum lahir lagi ke dunia smpailah dah berkahwin ni, mereka ttp x putus2 mendoakan aku...Sob sob sob...syahdunyee...

Aku harapkan semoga Allah permudahkn dan selamatkan perjlnn kami nnt bermula dr Heathrow hinggalah ke Kuala Lumpur...oho, 12 jam lebih perjlnn tnpa henti, sure boring tp at least kurang penat kot klu nk dibndingkn time aku balik skjp arituh, kene transit kat Dubai la pastuh S'pore lak, penat dan pening sbb jet lag...tp akan boring kew klu balik berdua?=)...

And ni juga adlh pngalaman pertama berpuasa di dalam kapal terbang wktu siang2 nii..Last year dtg sini time puasa gak tapi mlm so, boleilaa mkn2 dan mkn sahur skali..tp this time, hurmmm...tgok mcmna nnt..To be honest, aku pening sikit bab2 garis masa nii...klu ikut pemahaman dan logik aku yg x seberapa ni, rasa2nya mmg akan masuk malam laa bile merentasi India sblum smpai ke Msia...sbbnya, aku nnt smpai Msia jam 7 pagi waktu tmpatan..eih merentasi India kew?Tapi rsnye lalu kot area tuh,aku pun x ingtlaa...owh puasa, mmg mnguji iman dan kesabaran...aku bakal tgok je kew org2 sekeliling aku mkn mknn yg sedap2 tuu?! owh...Sabarlaah yeee...=(

Errrr...The Perfect Husband?...(^_^)

2008-09-12T16:35:00.001+01:00

Got it from my email inbox...=)

Several men are in the locker room of a golf club. A cell phone on a bench rings and a man engages the hands free speaker function and begins to talk. Everyone else in the room stops to listen.

MAN: 'Hello'

WOMAN: 'Honey, it's me. Are you at the club?'

MAN: 'Yes'

WOMAN: 'I am at the mall now and found this beautiful leather coat. It's only RM1,000. Is it OK if I buy it?'

MAN: 'Sure, go ahead if you like it that much.'

WOMAN: 'I also stopped by the Mercedes dealership and saw the new 2008 models. I saw one I really liked.'

MAN: 'How much?'

WOMAN: 'RM390,000'

MAN: 'OK, but for that price I want it with all the options.'

WOMAN: 'Great! Oh, and one more thing...the house I wanted last year is back on the market. They're asking RM2,950,000' for it.

MAN: 'Well, then go ahead and give them an offer of RM2,800,000. They will probably take it. If not, we can go the extra R150,000 if it's really a pretty good price.'

WOMAN: 'OK. I'll see you later! I love you so much!'

MAN: 'Bye! I love you, too.'

The man hangs up. The other men in the locker room are staring at him in astonishment, mouths agape.

He turns and asks: 'Anyone know who this phone belongs to?'

Apa itu Istidraj?

2008-09-10T18:00:00.002+01:00

A very good article I got from a friend of mine. Do circulate around. Happy Reading!

Kaya dgn harta dan kemungkaran

Minggu lepas, kawan seofis Fendi tanya "Kenapa kadang kala kita lihat
seseorg insan tu sentiasa dapat kegembiraan spt dapat naik pangkat,
murah
rezeki dll sedangkan dia tu selalu melakukan kemungkaran? ".

So,Fendi pun jawablah yang kdg kala sesuatu anugerah Allah swt kpd
seseorg
individu tu bukanlah sebab Allah sayangkan hambanya itu tetapi kerana
Allah
nak tengok sejauh mana keikhlasan orang itu. Allah nak tengok adakah
hambanya itu akan menyedari bahawa Allah amat bermurah hati dengannya
jadi
sepatutnya dia bersyukur dan berubah menjadi baik. Tapi jika individu
itu
masih tidak reti bersyukur maka sesungguhnya dia telah menimbulkan
kemurkaan Ar-Rahman.Teringat juga Fendi pd satu penjelasan ustazah
sekolah
rendah dulu.

Ada member tanya kenapa kdg2 kita dah banyak kali berdoa tapi belum
dapat
apa yang diimpikan. Ustazah kata itu tandanya Allah sayang pada
kita.Sebabnya Allah tahu kalau kita lambat atau belum dpt yg diimpikan,
kita akan terus berdoa dan mengingati Ilahi. Sebenarnya Allah amat
rindukan
suara hamba-hambaNya merayu dan memujiNya. Kalau sekali berdoa terus
dapat,
kemungkinan besar lepas tu kita kita taksub dan lupa utk bersyukur pd
yg
Esa.

Tup-tup dpt pula artikel ni drp seorg rakan. A very relevant and
interesting article. Semoga Allah beratkan timbangan ibadah kita drp
timbangan dosa di Pdg Mahsyar nanti. InsyaAllah..

Apakah dia istidraj itu?

Ianya adalah pemberian nikmat Allah kepada manusia yang mana pemberian
itu
tidak diredhaiNya. Inilah yang dinamakan istidraj.

Rasullulah s. a.w. bersabda :"Apabila kamu melihat bahawa Allah Taala
memberikan nikmat kepada hambanya yang selalu membuat maksiat
(durhaka),ketahuila h bahawa orang itu telah diistidrajkan oleh Allah
SWT."

(Diriwayatkan oleh At-Tabrani, Ahmad dan Al-Baihaqi)

Tetapi, manusia yang durhaka dan sering berbuat maksiat yang terkeliru
dengan pemikirannya merasakan bahawa nikmat yang telah datang kepadanya
adalah kerana Allah berserta dan kasih dengan perbuatan maksiat mereka.

Masih ada juga orang ragu-ragu, kerana kalau kita hendak dapat
kebahagian
didunia dan akhirat kita mesti ikut jejak langkah Rasullulah saw dan
berpegang teguh pada agama Islam.

Tetapi bagaimana dengan ada orang yang sembahyang 5 waktu sehari
semalam,
bangun tengah malam bertahajjud, puasa bukan di bulan Ramadhan sahaja,
bahkan Isnin, Khamis dan puasa sunat yang lain. Tapi, hidup mereka
biasa
sahaja. Ada yang susah juga. Kenapa? Dan bagaimana pula orang yang
seumur
hidup tak sembahyang, puasa pun tak pernah, rumahnya tersergam indah,
kereta mewah menjalar, duit banyak, dia boleh hidup kaya dan mewah.

Bila kita tanya, apa kamu takut mati? Katanya, alah, orang lain pun
mati
juga, kalau masuk neraka, ramai-ramai.

Tak kisahlah! Sombongnya mereka, takburnya mereka.

Rasullulah s. a. w. naik ke langit bertemu Allah pun tak sombong, Nabi
Sulaiman, sebesar-besar pangkatnya sehinggakan semua makhluk di muka
bumi
tunduk di bawah perintahnya pun tak sombong! Secantik-cantik Nabi Yusof
dan
semerdu suara Nabi Daud, mereka tak sombong. Bila sampai masa dan
ketikanya, mereka tunduk dan sujud menyembah Allah.

Manusia istidraj - Manusia yang lupa daratan. Walaupun berbuat maksiat,
dia
merasa Allah menyayanginya. Mereka memandang hina kepada orang yang
beramal. "Dia tu siang malam ke masjid, basikal pun tak mampu beli,
sedangkan aku ke kelab malam pun dengan kereta mewah. Tak payah
beribadatpun, rezeki datang mencurah-curah. Kalau dia tu sikit ibadat
tentu
boleh kaya macam aku, katanya sombong." Sebenarnya, kadang-kadang Allah
memberikan nikmat yang banyak dengan tujuan untuk menghancurkannya.

Rasullulah s. a. w bersabda: "Apabila Allah menghendaki untuk
membinasakan
semut, Allah terbangkan semua itu dengan dua sayapnya" (Kitab Nasaibul
Ã¦Ibad) Anai-anai, jika tidak bersayap, maka dia akan duduk diam di
bawah
batu atau merayap di celah-celah daun, tetapi jika Allah hendak
membinasakannya, Allah berikan dia sayap. Lalu, bila sudah bersayap,
anai-anai pun menjadi kelkatu. Kelkatu, bila mendapat nikmat(sayap) ,
dia
akan cuba melawan api. Begitu juga manusia, bila mendapat nikmat, cuba
hendak melawan Allah swt.

Buktinya, Firaun. Nikmatnya tak terkira, tidak pernah sakit, bersin pun
tidak pernah kerana Allah berikannya nikmat kesihatan. Orang lain
selalu
sakit, tapi Firaun tidak, orang lain mati, namun dia masih belum
mati-mati
juga, sampai rasa angkuh dan besar diri lantas mengaku dirinya tuhan.
Tapi
dengan nikmat itulah Allah binasakan dia.

Namrud, yang cuba membakar Nabi Ibrahim. Betapa besar pangkat Namrud?
Dia
begitu sombong dengan Allah, akhirnya menemui ajalnya hanya disebabkan
seekor nyamuk masuk ke dalam lubang hidungnya.

Tidak ada manusia hari ini sekaya Qarun. Anak kunci gudang hartanya
sahaja
kena dibawa oleh 40 ekor unta. Akhirnya dia ditenggelamkan bersama-sama
hartanya sekali akibat terlalu takbur. Jadi kalau kita kaya, jangan
sangka
Allah sayang, Qarun lagi kaya, akhirnya binasa juga.

Jadi, jika kita kaji dan fikir betul-betul, maka terjawablah segala
keraguan yang mengganggu fikiran kita. Mengapa orang kafir kaya, dan
orang
yang berbuat maksiat hidup senang /mewah.

Pemberian yang diberikan oleh Allah pada mereka bukanlah yang
diredhaiNya.
Rupa-rupanya ianya adalah bertujuan untuk menghancurkannya. Untuk apa
hidup
ini tanpa keredhaanNya? Tetapi jangan pula ada orang kaya beribadat,
masuk
masjid dengan kereta mewah kita katakan itu istidraj.

Orang naik pangkat, istidraj. Orang-orang besar, istidraj. Jangan!
Orang
yang mengunakan nikmatnya untuk kebajikan untuk mengabdi kepada Allah
bukan
istidraj. Dan jangan pula kita tidak mahu kekayaan. Kalau hendak
selamat,
hidup kita mesti ada pegangan.

Bukan kaya yang kita cari, juga bukan miskin yang kita cari. Tujuan
hidup
kita adalah mencari keredaan Allah. Bagaimana cara untuk menentukan
nikmat
yang diredhai Allah? Seseorang itu dapat menyedari hakikat yang
sebenarnya
tentang nikmat yang diterimanya itu ialah apabila dia bersyukur
nikmatnya.

Dia akan mengunakan pemberian ke jalan kebaikan dan sentiasa redha dan
ikhlas mengabdikan diri kepada Allah. Maka segala limpah kurnia yang
diperolehi itu adalah nikmat pemberian yang diredhai Allah. Bila tujuan
hidup kita untuk mencari keredhaan Allah, niscaya selamatlah kita di
dunia
dan akhirat.

Wallahualam.

"Dari Abdullah bin ' Amr R. A, Rasulullah S. A. W bersabda:

" Sampaikanlah pesanku biarpun satu ayat.."

Ramadhan Ya Karim!

2008-09-01T00:48:00.004+01:00

To all muslim friends, Happy blessing Ramadhan! May this fasting month fills with ibadah and good deeds. Do forgive us for the wrongdoings that we've done before. May Allah bless all beloved muslim friends out there with the ample rewards throughout this fasting month! Ramadhan Ya Karim!

Picture courtesy: klblox.blogspot.com/2007/09/salam-ramadhan.html

Kasih mak n abah....I miss them dearly!

2008-08-21T00:20:00.003+01:00

I guess both of them were wearing the new glasses! Wot a joy! My sis did all the eye tests, cut the lens and pick the right frames for them. And it's all FOC of course! We owe them a loads so now we try to pay them bit by bit though we know that we totally can't! Mak looks totally awesome in her new glasses! And abah as well! I really miss both of them...sob3 =(

with out me in =(. Jumadi&Sesah's daughters were all good n smiling!

1000s of hardships along the way have been paid off when seeing their own flesh wearing the convo cloak. Alhamdulillah.

Today's Riddle: he 'sees' u, but u dont see 'his'!=)

2008-08-20T23:38:00.004+01:00

p/s: if u got wot i meant..

We changed the plan, I meant, I changed the plan..We were heading to one day sight-seeing trip instead of 2 hours stadium tour! I'll update later, too tired to think and talk...AND write huhu....more pictures can be retrieved at my frenster account.

We were in Stonehenge today, 20Aug08! Celebrating my hubby's burfdey!

The Roman Bath

The 'Match'..hehe

Hubby's Birthday: 20/08

2008-08-15T13:07:00.005+01:00

Next Wed will be the day! I already gave him an advance birthday present, a pair of KAPPA shoes. He seems to like it as he wears it everyday he goes to work.(^_^).

Nevertheless, I'm thinking to bring him to Stamford Bridge and spend an hour or two for the Chelsea Stadium Tour. Speaking about the tour ticket, I just checked the price; it says 15GBP per person! 2 heads will be 30GBP. Quite expensive, innit?! Mind you, thinking it as a one life investment, I just have a go for it!(^_^).

Nothing much I can say bout Chelsea or famously known as The Blues as I'm not really into this football thing except for this fact: My hubby is really a big fan of The Blues club !!! *sigh*.

Dissertation Headache...=(

2008-08-15T12:33:00.003+01:00

Ya Allah, beriknlah aku kekuatan dan kerajinan di dlm menyiapkan dissertation ku ini....

Memahami Anak-Anakmu...

2008-08-13T16:40:00.004+01:00

Ada dua perkara yang perlu kita amati:

Pertama: amati sifat-sifat khasnya masing-masing. Tidak ada dua manusia yang sama serupa seluruhnya. Tiap manusia unik. Fahami keunikan masing-masing, dan hormati keunikan pemberian Allah SWT.

Kedua: fahami di tahap apa saat ini si anak berada. Allah SWT mengkodratkan segala sesuatu sesuai tahapan atau prosesnya.
Anak-anak yang merupakan amanah pada kita ini, juga dibesarkan dengan tahapan-tahapan.

Tahap sebelum kelahirannya merupakan alam arwah. Di tahap ini kita mulai mendidiknya dengan kita sendiri menjalankan ibadah, amal ketaatan pada Allah dan juga dengan selalu menjaga hati dan badan kita secara prima. Itulah kebaikan-kebaikan dan pendidikan pertama kita pada buah hati kita.

Pendidikan anak dalam Islam, menurut Sayyidina Ali bin Abi Thalib ra, dapat dibahagi menjadi 3 tahap mengikut umur;

1. Tahap BERMAIN (“la-ibuhum”/ajaklah mereka bermain), dari lahir sampai kira-kira 7 tahun.

2. Tahap PENANAMAN DISIPLIN (“addibuhum”/ajarilah mereka adab) dari kira-kira 7 tahun sampai 14 tahun.

3. Tahap SAHABAT/ LAWAN (“roofiquhum”/ jadikanlah mereka sebagai sahabat) 14 tahun ke atas.

Ketiga tahap pendidikan ini mempunyai karakteristik pendekatan yang berbeza sesuai dengan perkembangan kepribadian anak yang sehat. Begitulah kita coba memperlakukan mereka sesuai dengan sifat-sifatnya dan tahapan hidupnya.

Ketiga adalah memilih metod pendidikan. Setidaknya, dalam buku dua pemikir Islam, yaitu Muhammad Quthb (Manhaj Tarbiyah Islamiyah) dan Abdullah Nasih ’Ulwan (Tarbiyatul Aulad fil Islam), ada lima Metod Pendidikan dalam Islam.

Yang pertama adalah melalui Tauladan atau Qudwah
yang kedua adalah dengan Pembiasaan atau Aadah,
yang ketiga adalah melalui Pemberian Nasihat atau Mau’izhoh,
yang keempat dengan melaksanakan Mekanisme Kontrol atau Mulahazhoh,
sedangkan yang terakhir dan merupakan pengaman hasil pendidikan adalah Metod Pendidikan melalui Sistem sangsi atau Uqubah.

Sahabatku, jangan tinggalkan satu-pun dari ke lima metod tersebut, meskipun yang terpenting adalah Tauladan (sebagai metod yang paling efektif).

source: http://www.eramusli m.com/atk/ btm/8810164842- lima-poin- pendidikan- anak-dalam- islam.htm and Islamic e-book group

Life Thought...

2008-08-13T15:42:00.002+01:00

Volunteer: TasteAsia Festival. The Downsides and Lessons Learnt!

2008-08-13T01:47:00.005+01:00

Taste Asia Festival

We had joined the TasteAsia festival last weekend as volunteers. It was a 2-day event and we being paid 80GBP per head for the 2 days contribution. In addition to that, a certificate of appreciation will be given as well. This time round, the organiser had chose the Melbourne Field as the venue of event. So, we heard loads of complaint from the visitors as well as from the participants regarding the place since it is quite difficult to get there and that's also one of the reasons why there were not so many people went to the festival.

The Downsides
I don't know what were the festival's objectives that had been set out by the organiser. However, in my point of view, if the main goal is to introduce the culture and food from various countries in Asia especially from Malaysia, Indonesia as well as Philippines to the local people here, then I dare to say that they have failed to achieve that. The festival itself failed to attract the local people to come n 'taste' the meaning of 'truly Asia'. Like I said earlier, the location of the event wasn't suitable, it should be held in the town centre; but I believe that, the organiser must have aware of this issue beforehand. Probably there was a problem to get an approval from the local borough to realise the festival in the town centre, I'm not sure, I'm just speculating.

Another downside of the event was the shortage of volunteers. Guess just how many of us who were wearing that yellow vest? 3 only! Me, my hubby and Thiru. But we really didn't want to look so pathetic so we just focused on doing our jobs! It was raining then in the afternoon and I was shivering as the wind was quite strong (I also didn't bring my jacket!) And the next morning, only my hubby went to the festival since I got a fever that morning.

You guys curious to noe what kind of duties that we, as volunteers, need to do?

Saturday - 10.30am – 6pm

1. Man the organisor/info tent
2. Direct car/visitors
3. Litter picking
4. Clean washrooms/ensure toilet rolls supply
5. Any other general help required (if any)

Sunday - 10.30am to 7pm

1. Man the organisor/info tent
2. Direct car/visitors
3. Litter picking
4. Clean washrooms/ensure toilet rolls supply
5. Dismantle marquee and clear up
6. Any other general help required (if any)

Lessons Learnt!
Apart from the downsides, there were loads of things that we both learn after experiencing this volunteer job. Let me ask you a few simple questions.

1. Do you mind to sweep the floor in front of other people who have bad mouth and say nasty thing to you or looking at you with a disgusting feeling? How's your reaction will be?

2. Do you mind if someone asks you to do this and that eventhough you are not have a heart at all to do those things? Moreover, the person who orders you are the one that you hate to talk or see for example; your own boss?

If you guys answer similar to this: "I don't mind", then I must say that you are really professional dude!hehehe.

For each question that I asked, there is a logic and spiritual connection between them. You see, we both find that there were some people who treated us kindly, more humanly but there were also some people who bad mouth us just because we pick the litters around the field! The worst was those people were MALAYS! It really hurts my feeling to see this kind of people really exist among MALAYS who are known for the politeness and soft-spoken attributes! I do think that some people will not change though they are thousand miles away from the home-country! Don't be surprised that the local people show more respect on us! At least they say thank you when they put their rubbish inside our bin bag! Yeah, we do understand that it's our job then but is it so hard to open your mouth to say thank you or even try to give a beautiful smile to us?!

The Prophet (Peace be upon him) has said: ‘Your smile for your brother is Sadaqah. Your removal of stones, thorns or bones from the paths of people is Sadaqah. Your guidance of a person who is lost is Sadaqah.’ (Bukhari).

Unfortunately, this is rarely being practise nowadays...I am really feel disappointed to see this kind of scenario happened especially when I am here..=(

Next lesson is regarding the cleanliness of heart. Please do not speculate anything in your guys mind after you read the next following sentence. I don't like English people. BUT that doesn't mean I hate them. It's just that I found these people are quite cunning! If you read Malaysia's history(during the kesultanan melayu in 19th century), you will know what I meant! So when my volunteer's supervisor, Al****, asked us to take the bins and place them around the field, I felt so annoyed with her! It was just flash my memory back to the Kesultanan Melayu period, where these people became as the Penasihat to the sultan! I just hate this feeling; being as the subordinate to these people who had ruled Tanah Melayu for many2 years before the independence day! And I put the blame on them as well for separating the 3 main races(Malay, Chinese and Indian) economically and socially where in the end, after nearly 51 years we are independent from the Union Jack, we still couldn't break the racism wall!!!!Damn! Nevertheless, I tried to relax my mind and istighfar so that this kind of hatred will go away so that I can focus to my duty and Alhamdulillah, it worked.

Despite those experiences, we get to know many people for instance; I manage to make new friends; Kak Salmi and Acik Mah, both serve as officers in MARA office in Queensway (but Acik Mah already retired) and the best thing is, my hubby manage to land a job with Puji-Puji Restaurant. He previously had a job with one company but the job is quite tiring. Other than that, it helps to improve our communication skills with all level of people and boost up more confidence in public relationship! Being a volunteer really train us to be patient!

Moral of the story: Put a smile in your face and have a respect to everyone near you cause even though she is only a maid but she is also a human being!

Life Thought...

2008-08-12T15:33:00.003+01:00

Congrats Sis! Years of hard work have paid-off!

2008-08-12T12:01:00.005+01:00

What's more exciting and enjoying event after 5 years(1 year matrix+4years study in univ) struggling with the books, assignments and stay up every night? It's the C O N V O C A T I O N day! Years of hard work have paid-off and it's your time to enjoy the moment with them who have been and always be your main backbone of success; your parents!

So, millions of congrats to my dearly second sis, Siti Jalia or Kak Tie! I can only share this happy moment and cheer you from here! My sis already started her work as an Optometrist at Hanizah's Optometrist in Negeri Sembilan early June this year. And the company really pays her off handsomely! Just imagine, your job is only waiting for the customers to come in to the shop and every month, the RM2500 will be banked in to your account! A GOOD starting salary, isn't it? Optometrist is one of the professional jobs where the percentage of Malays and Bumiputeras involved are low as compare with the Chinese race. The disparity, I think, is mainly due to the lack of early-exposure to the children and teenagers. In my time, professions such as doctors, engineers and lawyers; these three jobs were being as the main discussion among my aunties and uncles and therefore they made other professions became unpopular!!!Nevertheless, among four of us, Kak Tie is the only one who ends up in the Health stream. The rest are in Engineering field.

As for my parents, their financial burden has been lifted up a bit. Alhamdulillah! I can feel how they feel right now! A bit relief and that's what we want them to feel! It's our turn now to pay-off what they have sacrificed though we know that the cost is priceless! 1 year more to wait before my 3rd sis will have her convo day and the following year will be my youngest sis's day! May Allah rewards our parents for their unstoppable efforts in bringing us up to be as a good and reliable human being! InsyaAllah!
Sis, good luck in your new career and new life!!! Be good to your customers okay!

A smiley face!

Tower Bridge, Greenwich, Royal Albert Hall, Kensington Garden, Harrods

2008-07-31T00:33:00.007+01:00

From Tower Millennium Pier to Greenwich Pier: The journey began...

At last, we arrived after went through 30mins of 'worth-the-money' journey

On the way back

Harrods

Royal Albert Hall

'Royal College of Music'

Kensington Garden

IQ Test....warming up the idle brain !!

2008-07-25T00:26:00.004+01:00

Guys, you can also test your IQ level via this following website:

http://www.afreeiqtest.com

just for fun! (^_^)

Intelligence Interval Cognitive Designation
40 - 54 Severely challenged (Less than 1% of test takers)
55 - 69 Challenged (2.3% of test takers)
70 - 84 Below average
85 - 114 Average (68% of test takers)
115 - 129 Above average
130 - 144 Gifted (2.3% of test takers)
145 - 159 Genius (Less than 1% of test takers)
160 - 175 Extraordinary genius

The above nuggets of info were politely grabbed from: http://www.iqtest.com/faq.html

Just a small reminder,one may say that cleverness is inherited or is gifted from GOD. That's quite true. However, I have different opinion. Doing exercise may help you to maintain your health. Likewise the brain, you also need to 'warming up' and then do 'some exercises' so that it can keep up with the pace. And as muslims/muslimahs, for each effort that we do, we leave it to ALLAH afterwards.
BTW, my hubby manage to get 136. Huhu shame on me! hehe...I bet u guys surely do better than me!hoho

Salmon Cheese Fry. Cubalaaah!Syedap!

2008-07-19T22:44:00.010+01:00

Last week, me n my hubby went to Blings Market in Canary Wharf. We went there with Kak Yati n her husband, Amzari. We bought Salmon Fish (GBP10 each), prawns (1 box=GBP14), crabs (1kg=GBP6.50)and squids (ikg=GBP6.50). Yaa yaaaa, I noe I spent a lots as I am craving those seafoods!!! huuhuuu

So today, I decided to cook the Salmon fish. I searched over the internet to find the recipe and I managed to find one that was similar to ready-made fillet fish. Believe me, it took 2 hours and half for me to just finish these four fried salmon cheese! The recipe can be retreived at: http://www.myresipi.com/top/detail/1345

My hubby said,"Sedap la yang!"..Whoaaaa,brtmbah semangat nk try others new recipes !!! hoh00oo.. (^x*)

Ketam Masak Cili

2008-07-19T22:29:00.005+01:00

Spaghetti Bolognese

2008-07-19T21:43:00.005+01:00

Cheese and Mushroom Sauce with Pasta and Daging Masak Pedas!

2008-07-06T17:28:00.007+01:00

It has been almost a year since I first came to London. Within a few months, I have become more resilient towards all the hardships which I had to bear with during these periods. In fact, I am now more or less, able to counter-attack the very unpleasant things that may occur throughout my daily life. Moreover, my English is much better now as compare to my "early golden ages" and I have more confidence to speak English in public. Alhamdulillah. Indeed, "experience is a good teacher" but one had said that; "Learn experience from others may save you from doing the same,wrong mistakes, and avoiding from making wrong decisions".

Guys, I really dont want my Nu Na's Chronicle turns to Nu Na's Daily Recipe, but I cant help myself from taking pictures of my self-made cuisine. For today's lunch, I made Pasta with Cheese and Mushroom Sauce. It was easy to make and save your precious time as it was just took 'bout half an hour to complete. That is include the time for preparing the ingredients: grayting the cheese, frying the mushrooms and so forth. I once ate this when I was living with the Bruneian family but I havent got the chance to do it until today.

Just look at the texture. Yummy isn't it? (^_^) For pasta, I used Fussili while for making the cheese sauce, I used the Cheddar cheese,milk,butter and flour. As for the mushrooms, I used button mushrooms and cut each of it into four and then fried them with chopped garlic, salt and pepper using olive oil. It was my first try and the taste: should I say more?! Hehe.

Yesterday's dinner I made Daging Masak Pedas. Believe me, this was my first time I bought and eat beef here! Actually, I dont really eat beef and lamb that much. But, a few days before, I was kept thinking about the Daging Masak Pedas which was usually cooked by my mom during Hari Raya or special event(Owh,I miss my mom..sob sob sob). And so, I called my mom yesterday afternoon to confirm again regarding the ingredients and asked her any useful tips that could be applied during the making process.

The result: As you can see here. This is actually the leftover. I just took the picture today. And since I made the pasta for the lunch and decided not to cook the rice, so my hubby had eaten it with the pasta!Hurmmm...macam2!(^_^). For 1kg beef = 7GBP = 42MYR. Expensive kan? I dont know how much the beef price per kilogram in Msia. Anyone?!

New Room, New Hopes and New Life for sure!

2008-07-05T01:01:00.009+01:00

Hi Sarah n reader of my blog,

Finally, I moved in to a new room officially on 18th of June 2008. So that is to say, I already live in this new room with my hubby for approximately 3 weeks! I pay the room for 455GBP pcm (per calendar month) instead of using the usual way, pay in for every 4 weeks. I was preoccupied with the dissertation, moving the stuff,be as a tourist guide and so forth for the last 2 weeks ago so that is why I couldnt update my precious blog for almost 3 weeks!!!!Damn,really miss Nu Na's Chronicle!

Our new flat is on the 2nd floor in Tower Hamlet Borough. This flat consists of 4 rooms, 1 kitchen, 1 shower room and 1 toilet. The master bedroom is occupied by one gentleman from South Africa, one guy from India(muslim) who lives in the second room, mine is in the 3rd room and the last room which is the smallest one is occupied by one man from France. So, I am the only lady in this flat. Anyway, I really satisfy with all facilities that are provided by the agent of this house. So far, it is really easy to deal with him. But the most important thing that I like about this new flat is, we are all equal. No one can act as a landlord as this flat is run by the agent as the meddler person between us; the tenants and, the real landlord of the flat.

My past experience has taught me a lot. Living with the landlord only brings so much pain. They first will control your daily life; asking you where have you been for the whole day?, Why are you coming home late?, and etc etc etc. They dont sound like your parents when your parents worrying about you. But they DEFINITELY sound like a 'busybody' type of person! Then, the next thing you know, they start to intefere your very own secretive and sensitive business; asking you how much many you earn or get for your scholarship, how did you spend them? and etc etc etc!!!!Owh Pleaseeeeee, mind your own business laaa, okay?!

So here, I am free to do my own thing. Enjoy cooking is the most laaa!!!hehe. And I don't really talk too much with them, instead of saying: Hi. Are u allright? Hello. Enough. Full stop. I learnt from my past experience too, dont let your friendliness carried away and dont let your guard down! Dont trust anybody! HoH0000oo...

Hoh0 muke penat but full of satisfaction!!!! Nasi Ayam: the making...i mean the finishing...hehe

Nasi Ayam and Kuih Keria....!!!!

2008-07-05T00:39:00.009+01:00

Guys, this was also my very first attempt to do the Nasi Ayam! Doesn't it look sooo damn tempting?! (Hueekkkk...puke..hehe) Gosh, I dont know that cooking can give me so much pleasure! You noe wot, I never cook those dishes; Masak Kurma, Nasi Goreng Tom Yam, Apam Balik etc etc etc in Malaysia as I can get them easily. My very typical opinion at that time was : "Why wasting my time in the kitchen if I can go to the kedai mkn or kueh stall to buy them?!"

But here,I'm damn craving to eat those so I just tried them out and the motivation that drives me to try new recipe each time is definitely my hubby laa. As I said earlier, I find pleasure each time I cook something as there will be another person who will eat it and then surely gives a very nice and encouraging comment which boost up my confidence and the excitement feeling to do and cook more!!!!

I made the kueh keria yesterday. The kueh was very okay (same as good laa...hueeekkkk(another puke)hehe) but I failed to make the coating sugar...I was not sure, it probably either I put too much water or I didnt wait until the mixture crystalised but anyway they still taste yummy!!!

Apam Balik! Nyum nyum!

2008-07-01T21:22:00.011+01:00

Okay, this was my first attempt to make my very own apam balik!!!!Hahaha, enjoy maaa cooking them...but they sure took a lot of my time to make it and you noe wot, I did learn something in the process of making it. One of them is you need the swirly skill when pouring the batter into the pan. Mastering this skill enable your apam balik looks nicer and yummy too!

Too bad, I just learned it and as I not a very 'gifted' person in kitchen, so tht's why my apam baliks look soooo horrible. But hey, as an old saying, dont judge book by its cover yaa, they were crunchy and taste delicious!

Nasi Goreng Tom Yam and Salad!

2008-07-01T21:22:00.010+01:00

The Nasi Goreng Tom Yam was requested by my hubby. Try it with salad that has been garnished with the salad dressing! The taste, only one word can describe: SUPERB!!!!

Lunch: Masak Kurma etc

2008-07-01T21:21:00.006+01:00

Sorry guys, I forgot to post this entry as well as the other two above. Believe me, I never thought that one day I can cook as good as a 'chef'...haha, just kidding guys!

But, they did taste good anyway...urmmm according to my hubby laaa kan...sure laa he will compliment my cook as not to hurt my feeling, otherwise,he may take more time just to get my heart back.....hoh00oo

Jom Jalan!

2008-06-12T14:15:00.012+01:00

1. Chinatown, Gerrard Street, Leicester Square
2. National Gallery, Trafalgar Square, London Eye & Big Ben

He's HERE! Praise to ALLAH!

2008-06-09T12:04:00.005+01:00

At Heathrow Airport: Arrival

#2: Room Hunting Begins!: How bout this one?

2008-06-07T19:23:00.000+01:00

Salam n Hi all!

I've got hay fever two nights ago and I'm still in recovering process. But I'm not feeling sad because of that as it will expiate minor sins that I've done before! Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah since HE still shows HIS mercy on me....Okay, back to our main topic yaa. For your guys information, the previous room has been taken ( so I regard it as it is not meant for us (^_^) ) BUT the agent had called me and said that there was another room, prettier n much more comfortable than the missed one. So I thought; it might be a second chance and probably the better option than before so we made an appointment to meet each other on the following day(Friday) at 11am. However,I really suffered a very high fever that night and couldnt make it on the next day. I was too weak to even get out from the bed and so, I texted the agent and canceled it.

But the room hunting was still ongoing though I was sick and today, someone has replied to my advert on muslim-ads. You can see the pictures attached (Owh sis,Im sorry if the pictures are copyrighted but this is totally for non-profit interest!). Very2 lovely,innit?! And hopefully it is as beautiful,clean and lovely as the pictures depict when I seeing them with my naked eyes soon!

She really offers me a very affordable price (like I stated in the advert!), 400GBP per month but the only problem is the refundable deposit is really unbelievable, 500GBP! I can see where does she get the guts to put such a high price for the deposit in the first place as the room and house condition are extremely nice, innit?!

Anyhow, if she is able to open a negotiatiation regarding the deposit,to at least make it to 2 weeks(yEAy!),3 weeks(so-so) or 4 weeks(which I, more or less to agree with...huhu), then what shall I say more?! Definitely, I will take you bebeh! hehehe...BUT it's the location that I shall consider as well. Have heard the road name but need to find it but the postcode is really near to my current location (mine: E1 0SD n her: E1 4LR)!

Urmmm,I'll let this one to ALLAH as well as I have tried to find them and it is now back to HIM to manage my next affair.

Don't stop praying for me yaaa...May ALLAH rewards you as well for your kind doing!

Atzmi Daily Message - Opposition

2008-06-07T19:17:00.002+01:00

Whatever course we decide upon in life, there is always someone to tell us that we are wrong. But the loudest objections come from the voices of insecurity and past experience within ourselves. The best response is to cultivate a habit of quiet confidence and serenity, and to stay the course of our choosing.

Petrol Crisis - A Pictorial Study

2008-06-07T17:05:00.003+01:00

These cartoons cynically describe the current situation...I've got them from my email box so you guys are free to circulate them...It's a global crisis nowadays...

#1: Room Hunting Begins! Am looking for a new room!

2008-06-05T14:24:00.008+01:00

Huhu..need to find a new room..more spacious as my hubby will come here this Sunday...!I started to search in Gumtree, looking for a double room with a very affordable price that offers for couple since last week and couldnt find the one that is near to my univ!

Luckily,two days ago I managed to get one and yesterday, a viewing appointment had been arranged. Below are the pictures that he sent me to my email. Yeah,very spacious and look soo 'decent' but when I saw it yesterday,the place was quite ages.Couldnt blame the pictures as they were taken in June,last year. And I was nearly hit by the broken door (balcony entrance)!But I don't mind bout that as long as he can ask someone else to repair it. However, the only problem was he asked me to move in on Wed,next week!I told him that I can only move out from current house either in the end of june or quicker than that, on 25th June.

After had a long discussion with my husband this morning, we decided to let go that room!O Allah, I'm asking to you that if that room is meant for us and is good for us, please do not let anyone become interested in that room until 18th of June so that we can move in a week after that! BUT If it is doesnt mean for us, please help us to find the one that is much much nicer than this one!

Dear my blog reader, do pray for me so that I can get a nice,cosy double room with an affordable price within 2 weeks from now yaaa?!

Spring is slowly fading as the summer is approaching....!!!-Regents Park London

2008-06-02T20:34:00.009+01:00

O0o0whh roses! I do love u!!!!ur smells are sooo inviting...yummy2! hehe

New Song 0n Bleach Opening! Love it!

2008-06-02T15:26:00.003+01:00

Islamic Circle - The Beauty in Islam!

2008-06-01T14:20:00.014+01:00

When we want to find or to get know more about Allah and Islam, HE will show the path to us. I believe this as it is happening to me now. Alhamdulillah, I born in the Islam family and proud to say that I am a muslim! But,the qualities of my ibadah are still in doubt. And YES, I know that I'm unable to measure them as there's no specific tool or advance equipment to evaluate, monitor and print out the quality results of each of my ibadah BUT yet, I am 101% confirm that there're still weaknesses here and there.

My friend invited me to join the Islamic Circle lecture y'day in Central London Mosque. At first,my niat was to get some fresh air since I wasn't going anywhere since the exam fever attacked but it turned out to be a wonderful and fascinating day I've ever felt!I'm not going to talk about the lecture during Islamic Circle but more than that, it's about akidah, the first principle of Rukun Islam:the Syahadah!

With a small group of sisters(3 Indonesian, 2 Malaysian, 1 Paki-born-Uganda and 1 Indian-born-France) and lead by Brother Hilal(Indon/Vietnam-born-S'pore), we headed to Sis Syafiqah's house in Edmonton Green as soon as the lecture finished. I didn't know the main reason why they wanted to go there in the first place. But then, a brief explanation from Kak Yati, made me understand a lil bit of the whole story.

While we were waiting for Bro Hilal to buy some snacks,Sis Nurul bought a beautiful flower while Sis Ary bought a scarf from Tie Rack. They said,"These will be given to Sis Syafiqah's mom as a gift from ALL of US". At the same time, Bro Hilal already prepared a PRAYER cd to be handed in to Syafiqah's mom. At that time,I thought,how these people use such a nice approach to help other people who are really in needs!

Sis Syafiqah's mom is at 63. Her name is Khatijah(a lovely name) but she rather calls herself as Betty and she used to be a Church goer! She said, she used to born as a muslim but I think due to her free-life here,she was really away from Islam. She said that her brother(lived in USA) who passed away 1.5 years ago, died as a Christian believer and all his sons and daughters are Christian followers as well! But ALLAH will give the hidayah to people he wants and so,it started with her second daughter, Sis Syafiqah. I can see how committed sis Syafiqah is in order to bring her mom back to Islam path! But not only her mom,but her older brother and sister as well!

An Asar prayer was performed after a short chat and was Imam by Bro Hilal. Aunt Khatijah was asked to perform the prayer together(jamaah) by following the steps though she only knew a bit bout it. A tazkirah then was delivered by Bro Hilal,it was short but so meaningful and all the points he addressed out were relevant to Aunt Khatijah and even to us as well! He advised Aunt Khatijah to start praying by doing the Subuh and Asar prays and don't wait to start them as we don't know when our time will come. Aunt Khatijah is really repent for her wrong doing before and I even cried a bit when she started to cry,regretting her past and her brothers who died without saying syahadah!

I do like the way Bro Hilal delivering his dakwah. He dressed so casual but yet clean and showing his genuine nawaitu to help others by wearing a white shirt. The sisters were filled with full enthusiasm to helping out Aunt Khatijah by teaching her how to pray and even developed a very good rapport with Aunt by giving her those gifts. And I see, how Islam unites people from many walks of life as I experienced in this small group of sisters,we come from every side of the world,we can be so close eventhough we just met each other and we friend without prejudice,double standard and far from racism! And yet,I really found the beauty in Islam here in London!

You see,to dakwah, it's no use if you use harsh way! Take a simple example, no one will ever listen if you criticise using improper words and tones! Therefore, soft and diplomatic is the winning route! The tendency to against the upright & morality and the akidah to be specific is depending upon who is your companion as well. That's why we need to at least try to find a righteous friend. And I think,the mistake that brings Aunt Khatijah far from the true path is because she failed to get a friend who upholds the Islam principles. I have no clues how the dakwah is being conducted in Malaysia and how do we supporting the muallaf(newcomer in Islam) to nourish Islam in their heart and in daily life BUT I do think that at least I can use the way of Bro Hilal and sisters conducting the dakwah and yet,they do it not because of money but because they WANT to do it!

Dear reader, let us pray together for Aunt Khatijah . She is no late, everyone is no late to come back to the real path as long as we still breathing the air! The beauty in Islam will prevail!

Pictures Courtesy: From my Digi-Cam. The flower pictures were taken in Regent's Park, London.

SAFE MODE(for now) - 7 FACTS ABOUT ME!

2008-05-30T11:22:00.007+01:00

've been tagged for the 1st time ever since I became a blogger..LOL! And since I finished my last paper y'day, so I decided to answer Eno's tagged which is about the:: 7 Facts About Me ::. Keep on read 'em if in case u build an interest to know more 'bout me!(^_^)

Real Fact #1: My name is Nur Anida. Literally meaning; if I interpret it correctly in English:
Nur = the LighT
Anida = the Calling (take it from the arab root word Nida').
I still remembered when I was in primary school. I was eager to know the meaning of my name. When I asked my parents the meaning of it, they gave me a blank look, they were just telling me the Nur's meaning. It was my father who gave me the name and he said, he got the idea of giving me this name from a girl he met when he was still a bachelor (and that girl was definitely NOT his gurlfriend if in case, you ever crossed that in mind !!hehe).But I'm pretty sure that it must be the ilhAm from Allah!Very glad to know the meaning of it and vry proud to own this name as well!You see, there are not so many people who have this name or rather call themselves with this name, more or less, maybe it's around 1:1000 ratio in M'sian women's population!hahaha...pandai2 jew aku wat fakta numbers nii!

Real Fact #2: I'm a MARRIED woman now!Alhamdulillah!Am vry grateful to hv such a lovely, kind-hearted, funny and playful but sometimes strict and at other times, quite serious!He just knows how to act and respond at appropriate times!You own my heart by!Hahaha, okay-okay don't puke yaa..hey,if it's N0T ME who gives such compliments to my own husband than who else would be?!Obviously, it's a N0-N0x1000 from the girls outside okay?!I'm very protective of my own thing,ain't I?(^_^)

Real Fact #3: Okay,back to history again!This was an old story of mine. Back then in 2001, after the SPM result was announced. It was so happened that I got 2 offers to further my study abroad :

1. Germany under JPA scholarship (which I really badly wanted it!)
2. USA under MARA scholarship (which I didn't expect to get it due to the fact that, there were many other competent candidates, you know just how many brilliant MRSMians out there craving for this kind of opportunity!huhu)

sadly to say, I didn't go to either of them because of the family matter (Or should I say,HE just not yet approve it @ that time). Needless to say, I guess, it's my luck to be here now in London (Or should I say,HE now opens the chance for me this time round) which I never ever crossed in my brain to study in English country! You sure know wot i mean yaaa, look up those list again! NONE of them is UK ya..NONE!

Real Fact #4: Errmmm yeah..I'm ugly..Haha,that's damn true!Hey,don't compare me with you guys ya!I'm comparing myself with my other three sisters!Yeah I know, it's like I'm INSULTING myself each time I compare myself with other people but this is for fun okay and for the fact regarding myself?!hehe.However, to some extent, I'm one of my parents fav daughter yaa...hahaha. But as a matter of fact, I'm one kind of rebellious daughter type too! Believe me!Nevertheless, the true is,every one of us will always be the apple of their eyes 4eva!

Real Fact #5: I hv many friends, it's true but the real fact is I hardly to have the so-called best friend or the closest friend ever!I always on the move, changing from one place to another.Yeah, I know is like I'm giving an excuse for not having the closest one but indeed,I just find it difficult to maintain these communication contacts. However, once I found one, I will always keep in touch and say a word or two if I hv time to do so!It's not like I'm forgetting them,but the thing is, this friendship actually always blossom in my heart;tht's what I am! And another thing I found is that, I'll close to people who I think, I can put my trust on to, so once you break that trust, we still be friend but that's it, not more than that, just a typical friend. But sometimes, I misjudge people because some of them are wearing this 2-type face mask which I hardly recognise them! Hurmm, needless to say, I'm considering myself as a 'lone ranger' type who always in the 'invisible' mode, only pop up from nowhere when there's sumthing need to be settled down..hehe.

Real Fact #6: I'm no good at sport!I'm totally screwed up in this particular area!The best field that I've done quite good is in academic.haha.I wish I could be at least, a badminton player or a netball player in the national level BUT, obviously, they all just a numb wish!hehe. And for your additional information, I'm pretty bad at math actually...that's true!I couldn't make calculation on my head and when I do these simple math probs, not that simple laa but the one that got so many mathematical operations, believe me, I will take ages to complete them!Very slow,innit? And other thing is that, I just get confused between pull and push and left and right! I didn't know that I'm suffering this kind of problem but it is so happened that I just realised them when I'm here! I think my brain has some twisted wires in it that it makes it difficult to differentiate those two things!huuuuuuu

Real Fact #7: Wow, hv come this so far..the final one; I'm going to be 25 soon in a few months more!At this age, I'm craving for a soul filling much more than ever!I'm looking forward to practising a good and valuable deeds according to Islam ways which I hope will always doing them constantly!Give the very best try to be as an obedient and truthful wife and am trying to be a supportive and passionate mommy towards my future children!

okie dokie, ENO, I'm just done writing 7 facts bout me...the facts that just crossed my idle brain at the moment!hahaha...owhhh, I really need a few days break after being in paranoid state due to the exam fever!Urrmmmm, a holiday would be very nice,innit?!(^_^)

The Beauty of Math...=). Got them from from my inbox mail!

2008-05-30T11:03:00.001+01:00

Beauty of Math!

1 x 8 + 1 = 9
12 x 8 + 2 = 98
123 x 8 + 3 = 987
1234 x 8 + 4 = 9876
12345 x 8 + 5 = 98765
123456 x 8 + 6 = 987654
1234567 x 8 + 7 = 9876543
12345678 x 8 + 8 = 98765432
123456789 x 8 + 9 = 987654321

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1 x 9 + 2 = 11
12 x 9 + 3 = 111
123 x 9 + 4 = 1111
1234 x 9 + 5 = 11111
12345 x 9 + 6 = 111111
123456 x 9 + 7 = 1111111
1234567 x 9 + 8 = 11111111
12345678 x 9 + 9 = 111111111
123456789 x 9 +10= 1111111111
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9 x 9 + 7 = 88
98 x 9 + 6 = 888
987 x 9 + 5 = 8888
9876 x 9 + 4 = 88888
98765 x 9 + 3 = 888888
987654 x 9 + 2 = 8888888
9876543 x 9 + 1 = 88888888
98765432 x 9 + 0 = 888888888
987654321 x 9 - 1 = 8888888888
9876543210 x 9 - 2 = 88888888888

Brilliant, isn't it?

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And look at this symmetry:

1 x 1 = 1
11 x 11 = 121
111 x 111 = 12321
1111 x 1111 = 1234321
11111 x 11111 = 123454321
111111 x 111111 = 12345654321
1111111 x 1111111 = 1234567654321
11111111 x 11111111 = 123456787654321
111111111 x 111111111=12345678987654321

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Now, take a look at this...

101%

From a strictly mathematical viewpoint:

What Equals 100%?
What does it mean to give MORE than 100%?
Ever wonder about those people who say they are
giving more than 100%?
We have all been in situations where someone wants
you to GIVE OVER 100% ..

How about ACHIEVING 101%?

What equals 100% in life?

Here's a little mathematical formula that might help
answer these questions:

If:
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O
P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

Is represented as:

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15
16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

If:
H-A-R-D-W-O-R- K

8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%

And:
K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E

11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%

But:
A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E

1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%

THEN,
look how far the love of God will take you:

L-O-V-E-O-F-G-O-D

12+15+22+5+15+6+7+15+4 = 101%

Therefore, one can conclude with
mathematical certainty that:

While Hard Work and Knowledge
will get you close, and Attitude
will get you there,
It's the Love of God that will
put you over the top!

Bijak BKN Penentu Segala2nya...

2008-05-30T10:58:00.003+01:00

P/S: Can you read 'em? LOL. Have no idea how to make it bigger than this. Any suggestions are welcome!

Mencintai Manusia Kerana Apa...?

2008-05-20T22:58:00.007+01:00

Kerana fizikalnya kah?
Kerana harta bendanya kah?
Kerana sifatnya kah?
Kerana terikut-ikut orang kah?
Kerana bisikan hati yang mengatakan bahawa dialah orang yang dicari selama ini kah?
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Atau...Kerana agamanya?

Dalam senarai di atas,mungkin ada di antaranya yang terkena batang hidung sendiri. Mungkin ada sebab-sebab lain yang penulis(aku lah tu) tidak menyenaraikannya sbb tdk ter'cross' sebab lain pada minda ni ketika ini.

Dalam menyelusuri hidup berumah tangga yang baru sahaja berusia sebulan 8 hari ini,ada banyak perkara yang masih dalam proses bertatih; walau perlahan tapi kami mencuba. Perlu diingatkan, bkn semua proses dalam semua perkara kita lakukan secara cepat atau selaju kereta formula 1 tu. Tetapi di dalam proses setiap perkara, kita akan ada banyak cara(jika rajin berfikir), pelbagai inisiatif yang boleh membantu sama ada mempercepatkan proses tersebut atau alternatif yang membolehkan output yang bagus dihasilkan. Yaaa..OUTPUT! The superb quality output! Kata bijak pandai; "It's not how you start, but it's how you end".

Hakikat mencintai seseorang kerana agamanya adalah pilihan jawapan terbaik sekali. Bukan bermakna calon yang dicari mestilah seorang ustaz atau ustazah. Amat memadai sekiranya pilihan hati ialah seorang yang melaksanakan solat 5 kali sehari, tahu membezakan yang mana salah, yang mana baik, menasihati dan yang paling penting, berusaha ke arah kebaikan dan melaksanakannya. Mungkin boleh tambah lagi kriteria-kriteria positif lain tetapi yang dah dinyatakan di sini pun,bagi penulis, sudah dikira cukup. Penulis tidak mahu tamak kerana manusia tiada yang sempurna. Setiap kita, ada kelemahan dan pada diri setiap insan, pasti ada kelebihan.

Satu lagi, muhasabah diri. Jika inginkan jodoh yang baik, adakah kita sendiri sudah cukup baik untuk mendapatkan orang yang baik? Soalan yang sebelum ini selalu penulis fikirkan sebelum berumah tangga. Jadi, berusahalah untuk jadi lebih baik (in terms of agama, akhlak dan pergaulan dgn sekeliling). Dan yang paling penting, usaha untuk menjadi lebih baik itu, tidak terhenti apabila berkahwin, malah seharusnya ia dilipat gandakan lagi sesudah itu kerana perkahwinan itu, adalah penyatuan dua jiwa. Mungkin kita dan pasangan kita mempunyai perangai dan tabiat yang berlainan tetapi akidah kita masih satu. Oleh itu, penyelarasan(synchronisation) setiap perkara pasti dapat dilakukan selagi kita berpegang kepada tali Allah.

Windu kat suami...sob sob sob.. =(. "Aku mencintaimu kerana agama. Jika hilang agama itu padamu, maka hilanglah cintaku padamu...".

Hahahahaha......it's hilarious!

2008-05-18T15:48:00.002+01:00

Human Tetris?! Bwahahaha....sooo damn funny!

To My dearest: Mr. Radiation Physiscs and Laser!

2008-05-16T16:39:00.013+01:00

Yaahhhoooooo...no more assignments! All are completed now!!! Huhu...Alhamdulillah..Thank you Allah for helping me out this time! Not only this time but for every second, every single minute and every hour, 24/7 of my life...Thank you Allah!...

Now, only one more paper to go..huhu...I have urmmmmm 13 days gap before I can date with 'you', my deary, Mr. Radiation Physics and Laser! I just hope that you, my lovely Mr. Radiation, will treat me kindly and gently yaaa...And please, do not try to emit any hazardous radiation waves because I'm afraid that I may not have enough protection to avoid them yaa...And in addition to that, don't be too naughty by giving me hardest time when we meet later yaaa...It's just that I want to have a very sweet, lovely memory to remember for the entire of my life when I leave you afterwards...

Pleaaseeee laaaaa.......Give back my quiet n peaceable life!

2008-05-15T14:01:00.008+01:00

Hey you!!!...Just how many times do you want me to tell you to low the volume haaa...? Are you deaf?! Even a little child knows how to behave laa after being told ONCE! ONCE only okay...!?!You're a BIG man now..Can't you try to understand...?! Don't make me THINK or ASSUME you as a STUPID laaa...wait, even a stupid person tries to avoid doing the thing that can make other people angry loooo...!Even a dog knows how to listen taw!...I'm not saying you're a dog..that's soooo unacceptable....so, then, 'what' are you hah? A man without BRAIN! Definitely, it's YOU!!!!!

Try laa...try to understand my situation now...You said, you play those annoying songs to release your tension. Hey, you noe wot?..CONGRATULATIONS! You manage to TRANSFER your tension to me! I'm bloody hell tension each time I've heard those songs!!!! OMG, I'm soooo pathetic now! Since you came and live in this house, a room next to me...I was mighty 'blessed'!!!! Thank you for ruining my happy, lovely day! You're such a 'tolerant' and a 'good' boy!

Hey you!...I can't wait NOT to see you anymore! I just hate you so much that I want you to get out from this house as soon as possible! If not you then I'll be the ONE who will move from this house!You're soooooooo annoying...annoying...n annoying...!!!You're such a man without BRAIN...you're such a man with annoying attitude!Everywhere you go,you'll only bring problems to everyone!I curse you...

Pleaaseeee laaaaa.......Give back my quiet n peaceable life! GO AWAY...GO AWAY from my Life! JUST GOOOOOOOOO....!!!!...

♥ Monologue 3 : Ultimate tension!!!!!!

♥ Nida
Stepney Green
=S

Mestica - Rahmat Ujian

2008-05-14T22:08:00.003+01:00

yaa...disebalik dugaan, cabaran...ada hikmah tersembunyi...so, bersabar ye nida....

huhu, triple entri dlm masa sehari.....Nida nida...nmpak sngt ko nii...tension...sabar yeee...

Lyrics:-

Dalam derita ada bahagia [tapi slalu x perasan..=(]
dalam gembira mungkin terselit duka [Aaaa...sngt benar!]
tak siapa tahu
tak siapa pinta ujian bertamu [yup2..]

Bibir mudah mengucap sabar ["sabar Nida sabar"]
tapi hatilah yang remuk menderita [huuu,tk dpt disngkalkn lagi!]
insan memandang
mempunyai pelbagai tafsiran [pndangan masing2 adlh subjektif..]

Segala takdir
terimalah dengan hati yang terbuka
walau terseksa ada hikmahnya [Ya Allah, beriknlh aku kekuatan]

Harus ada rasa bersyukur [Alhamdulillah...]
disetiap kali ujian menjelma
itu jelasnya membuktikan
Allah mengasihimu setiap masa [Alhamdulillah...]
Diuji tahap keimanan
Sedangkan ramai terbiar dilalaikan
hanya yang terpilih sahaja [Alhamdulillah...]
antara berjuta mendapat rahmatnya

Allah rindu mendengarkan
rintihanmu berpanjangan
Bersyukurlah dan tabahlah [I will...try to b 'robust'+'stiff'+'rigorous'...]
menghadapi segala ujian diberi
Maka bersyukurlah selalu

Aduuhhh...wot an annoying + arrogant person! Menciiii !!!

2008-05-14T18:36:00.008+01:00

Perhatian: Sila baca entri kali ini mengikut lagak, gaya and klu mampu, suara spt Nabil Ahmad. Tk kenal Nabil Ahmad?...hah, layan laaa video bwh nih nnt...sblum tuh aku nk bebel dulu....!

"Bikin hati wa panasssssss",....entry nih wat pertama kali aku tulis BM SEBAB...kandungan isinye yg bakal mnyinggung bangsa lain....[aarrggghhhhhhhh]...

Thp kesabaran da smpai ke limitnyeeeee....kenapalah x paham bahasa....dah ckp elok2, tulun laa paham...kenapa buat kepala die jgk!Alahaaaaiii manusia, aku sndiri pun akn malu klu org lain da bg taw jgn byk kali...apsal laaa ko manusia x paham....apelah annoying sngt ko niii...keras kepala betul!....Napalah x lei paham....K E N A P A !?!?!

Patut ker aku TERJAH jew bilik die n JERKAH die n hamburkan semua ketensionan n kesewelan aku yg terjadi asbab dr perbuatan die yg melampaui batas (x phm bahasa!)...huh,hilang laa kesopanan dan kesusilaan aku selama nii disbbkn oleh mamat hump-peh niii...huhu..mcm mana wa mau study klu itu olang mising2 mcm tuuu..."huhu, NIDA bersabar jeer laaa yeee...Dugaan nih sume, dugaan....".Huh, tp klu die wat lagu tuh gak,aku x gerenti laaa apa kesudahan yg akn berlaku (memberi warning kat diri sendiri?!...huhu)

"Okay..Nida, tarik nafas dalam2....relax...sabar...sabar...sabar yee..."

Nota Kaki: "O00oOwhHh..ade lagi rupanya, x habis lagi..?"..Baper kali nk bgtaw...Lagu tuh x sedap, x yah pasang kuat2...ko sorang jew nk dgr...ko sorang jew suke...aku x suke..so jgnlaa pasang kuat2...Aku nk study laaaa...bkn mcm ko, dtg sini nk cari keje buat duet byk2!!!....Adduuuuuuhhhhh.....memang x paham bahasaaaaa....Tkde toleransi lngsung!...Tkde respect org sekeliling lngsung!huuuuuuuuuuuuuu....

"Sabar Nida...sabar...."

♥Monolog 2

♥Nida
Stepney Green
=S

Oo00owwhhH...lupee...video Nabil...Following is one of my feveret so far...(^_^)

♥♥ With You...with you...with you..... - Chris Brown ♥♥

2008-05-14T14:35:00.003+01:00

Sweet song..♥

LYRICS

I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And there's hearts all over the world tonight
Said there's hearts all over the world tonight
I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And there's hearts all over the world tonight
Said there's hearts all over the world tonight

Hey lil mama, ooh you're a stunner
Hot little figure, yes you a winner, and
I'm so glad to be yours
You're a class of your own and
Ooh little cutie, when you talk to me
I swear the whole world stops
You're my sweetheart and
I'm so glad that you're mine
You are one of a kind, and
You mean to me what I mean to you
And together baby there is nothing we won't do

'Cause if I got you
I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl you're my heart

And oh, I'm into you and
Girl no one else would do
With every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love
And now I know I can't be the only one
I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life who feel
What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... girl
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you... Oh girl

I don't want nobody else
Without you there's noone left, and
You're like Jordans on Saturday
I gotta have you and I cannot wait now
Hey lil shorty, say you care for me
You know I care for you
You know that I will be true
You know that I won't lie
You know that I will try
Be your everything

'Cause if I got you
I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl you're my heart

Oh, I'm into you and
Girl no one else would do
With every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love
And now I know I can't be the only one
I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life who feel
What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you... Yeah

And I will never try
To deny that you are my whole life
'Cause if you ever let me go
I would die so I won't run
I don't need another woman
I just need you or nothing
'Cause if I got that
Then I'll be straight
Baby you're the best part of my day

I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And there's hearts all over the world tonight
Said there's hearts all over the world tonight
They need their boo
They gotta see their boo
Said there's hearts all over the world tonight
Hearts all over the world tonight

And oh, I'm into you and
Girl no one else would do
With every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love
And now I know I can't be the only one
I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life who feel
What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh(girl)
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you...
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you...
Baby yeah

♥Huuuuuuuu....Nida, Chai yok! Aja2 Fighting! Gambattene...!!!♥

2008-05-12T23:41:00.007+01:00

Nidaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....

C'mon...don't be soooooooooo pathetic! You noe you are 'internally' strong and brave and have that thing calls 'self-confidence'....don't let this exam drags u to fall down and bruise your self-conscious! Don't become a prey of ur own stupidity...Where has ur guts gone Nida?!!!! W H E R E ?!!...Find back those little pieces of pluckiness....You don't have to show people that you are superior or competent in this field!The most vital thing to be considered is: How well you have done for your own sake!

♥ Monologue 1

♥ Nida
Stepney Green
11.57pm
Monday
=S

Rent..is..increasing....80GBP per week...hurmmm

2008-05-11T22:15:00.012+01:00

Should i continue staying in this small but lovely room?!...The people are nice though some of them are not a clean type (quite disgusting...really..*sigh*) and quite 'wording' to me[humpphheeehh (Pronunciation:-hump-peh)]....No offense, BUT i can still bear with that...just because they are good people and so far, can be trusted.....And the location as well...quite close to my univ...15 minutes walking-distance...save the travelling cost though all classes are finished and it's the time now to concentrate on MSc project...completing the second part of the programming...And the thesis writing...And the PhD proposal...And..urmmm enuff 'And' for now...

Next exam, 14/05/08....hurmmmm....80GBP per week...SEE, I keep on mulling over this thing...[Aaarrrrrggghhhhhhhhh]....

Ya Allah...YOU definitely know what is the best for me...

The carnival..yaaaa...The Bangladeshi(corrected: Bengoli is referring to the their language) people...they are celebrating their first new year in their calendar year...I was invited to join them..After asking permission from my husband(a baby-step-by-step to be a solehah wifey..),we went to the park; where the event took place and I saw the crowdedness of people...having fun,enjoyed the concert(hurmmm...don't have any clues wot they were singing on the stage yeow),stalls every where...and it was really hot and sunny day...I could guess the temperature...24 or 25 degrees...I felt like I was in Malaysia!!! huhu! And I sweated (fuuuhhh,seyes mcm kat Msia!)...

This evening, our neighbour(I don't know who they are..) were having a barbecue and the event is still ongoing now..11.36pm....this is how they celebrate the summer; i think...And everyone is wearing a very short, see-through clothes...Part of celebrating the summer; i guess!...No heavy or furless coats...everyone is exposing their body...laughing,playing and drinking(a must activity...) and sun-burning (good for their skin BUT not for me..it will just add up my melanin pigment; tanning my skin even more..I had that enuff yaa...hehe)...

And now, enjoy the pictures!

Sis Zakiah..landlord's wifey...lovely lady!

people..people...

Housemates: Some of them...the flag..AS how much they are proud of their country, so DO EYE (I!)!!!! AI Ai Sir!

♥ Solat Sunat Dhuha ♥

2008-05-06T10:36:00.009+01:00

I read one of my friend's entry regarding this. I tried to find more info about it on the net and Alhamdulillah, I manage to find a few. So, I compiled the two that have the arabic versions. Hopefully this time entry will be beneficial to all readers. InsyaAllah...

Petikan dr: 1. My-Sahabat 2. Perjalanan Suci

Solat Sunat Dhuha adalah solat yang dikerjakan pada waktu matahari sedang naik. Sekurang-kurangnya bilangan rakaat di dalam solat sunat ini adalah sebanyak 2 rakaat, namun begitu ianya boleh juga di lakukan sebanyak 4,6,8 rakaat mengikut kemampuan individu. Mengenai waktu menunaikannya, solat sunat dhuha ini dilakukan ketika mana matahari sedangn naik setinggi 7 hasta (kira-kira pukul 8 hingga sampai masuk waktu Zuhur)

Niat Solat Dhuha

Di antara Doa yg buleh dibaca usai mengerjakan Solat Sunat Dhuha:-

Maksud Bacaan Doa:
Ya Allah, Bahawasanya waktu dhuha itu waktu dhuha mu, kecantikan adalah kecantikan mu, keindahan itu keindahan mu, kekuatan itu kekuatan mu, kekuasaan itu kekuasaan mu, perlindungan itu perlindunganmu. Ya Allah jika rezeki ku masih di langit, turunkanlah dan jika ianya di dalam bumi keluarkanlah, jika sukar permudahkanlah, jika haram sucikanlah, jika masih jauh dekatkanlah berkat waktu dhuha mu dan keagungan mu, keindahanmu, kekuatanmu dan kekuasaanmu, limpahkanlah kami segala yang telah engkau limpahkan kepada hamba-hamba mu yang soleh.

Hadis berkaitan pelaksanaan Solat Sunat Dhuha:-

Sabda Rasulullah yang diriwayatkan oleh Abu Hurairah r.a :
Bermaksud: "Sesiapa yang mengerjakan Solat Dhuha, akan diampuni dosanya oleh Allah, sekalipun dosanya itu sebnyak buih dilautan."

Diriwayatkan dari Abu Zar, bahawasanya Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda: "Dua rakaat solat dhuha mencukupi sedekah untuk seluruh badan manusia"

N.B: Yg baik dijadikan amalan! Sharing is caring!(^_^)

New Look!

2008-05-04T11:48:00.004+01:00

A lil bit change has been done! U guys must have notice it! No need to elaborate more!...(^_^)
Lately, I've been busy with the exam preparation...I hv 5 more papers to go...the next one will be on 7,8 n 9th of May (Whooaaaaa!That's crazy innit?)...then, the fourth paper is on 14th of May n the last one will be on 29th of May...15 days gap BUT at that time, I have to complete my Phd proposal which is need to be handed in before end of May!

The actual 'deadline' for that is on 16th of May BUT i have requested to extend it as I am busy with the exam itself plus with one assignment; a lab report which should be submitted on 16th of May as well!It's all about time..time..time management!And I think, I fail to manage my precious time properly...wot a shame Nida!...huhu..=(

Anyway, my dearest friends, please pray for my success...I will try my best...put all my efforts to the end...eventually, I have to be strong to face all these challenges and hardship!
P/S:I have to keep this sentence in mind : I'll never walk alone!

Additional Pics...(^_^)

2008-05-01T01:59:00.002+01:00

More pics...(^_^)

2008-04-30T18:33:00.004+01:00

Unforgettable Memories Ever........Alhamdulillah.....

2008-04-26T21:53:00.009+01:00

A picture speaks a million words! Nuff said!

4 in 1...blood is always thicker than water!P/S: Exhausted faces! Thnks to the invention of contact lenses! All of us didn't have to wear glasses during this ceremony! "Everyone!Pretend to have a normal eyes! Forget about myopia problem for a while!" hihihi

Always be a mommy's daughter...huhu

The last picture before taking off to Dubai...sob sob sob =(

~HARRODS~..ShoppinG! heeee (^x^)

2008-04-02T21:38:00.015+01:00

I need money..more money...Everyone loves money!BUT..Better be "wassatiyah"! The best option ever!*At outside of Harrods building..

Bizi..enuff said!After handed in two assignments y'dey,felt a lil bit relieved! 2 down, another one to go(due this Friday..huhu)! Walla weii, fening2...Huhu,oke,I dunt want to talk bout the assignments...Now we talk about HARRODS! YeaY! haha..Hey, first of all,one thing about me that you guys should know, I'm not a shopaholic type..But, sometimes, going shopping is a way to light up your gloomy mood! (^_^)

As soon as I finished my Asar pray, without a well-planned thought,I went to Stepney Green tube station and started to questioned myself,"How bout going to Harrods?".Almost 7 months I've been in London but I'm not really going anywhere; Paris is an exceptional, oke. One thing for sure,I wish to visit all interesting places in London with my hubby..not only London, but to go to other Europe countries as well..Hopefully, he can come here before I going back to Malaysia this coming September..huhuhu!

From Stepney Green tube station, I went to South Kensington and took Piccadily Line to Knightsbridge. As soon as I get off from the tube, the sign shows to Harrod was noticeable. With great enthusiasm (lol),I headed for the exit to Brompton Road. Looking around, I saw a few people carrying the Harrods green shopping bag. I said to myself,"Hoh0, I'll definitely get one!"

Want to hear a true story about Harrods green shopping bag? If you requested to have another shopping bag, the answer you'll get is NO even though you buy a few different things. The staff there will try to place them, if possible, in the same bag!LoL! This is a true story that happened to my friend's auntie when she went shopping in Harrods last December!Owh Harrods, you definitely a 'something' that will be remembered for a century!!!

After sight-seeing(or window shopping should I say..hehe),I went to the Harrods store and bought a few thingy. Try to find something that is within my budget!LoL!Having said that, I bought 2 tea gift sets and several fridge magnets for my aunts and my mother-in-law. A handbag with Harrods label for my mother-in-law as well!Owh, how about my father-in-law? Hehe,I already sent him a very nice and beautiful tie from Tie-Rack.From what I heard, he will wear it each time he got a meeting with the UKM's big boss! A sign of appreciation, shall I say that?(^_^)

Now, let's have a pictorial study: An Evening in HARRODS.
**Click images to enlarge view

I've got 2 bags!Yeay, Lucky Me! hehe

D & D Memorial...

Diana & Dodi Love Story:Making Harrods more glamorous!

Yup, that's me!

Believe it!

Yo! P e A c e!

In between Egyptian Escalator: Me, the Mummy and the ala2-Matrix guy (notice him? hehehe...he's soooo obvious!!!)

On Egyptian Escalator...a quick snap!LoL!heeeexxx~~

Huhu, I swear this will NOT be my last visit to Harrods!Haha, but, I bet, next time, it will only be a window shopping!huhu...I have to save money from now!No more 'donations' to HARRODS or Oxford Street's shops or any other places that may 'magnet' my money away from me!
P/S: I guess globalisation really brings a significant impact in economy realm to be specific.I said that because you now can't really get any things; name it a t-shirt,a key chain,a handbag, a pair of shoes and many more that is made in England!Hardly to find!They all made in China, Thailand, Bangladesh, Pakistan and even Hong Kong!Just imagine the real cost of each product and compare it with the sale price they tag here in UK!Such a huge profit they may gain!*sigh*Now you can guess, which country the handbag and fridge magnets that I bought in Harrods come from?!LoL.For God sake,I am not shy to tell you and others that my t-shirt is made in China next time when I go back to Malaysia!heeeeexxx..Moral of the story: Belilah Barang Buatan Malaysia!Tak yah nk malu2 or segan2!I'm proud to be Malaysian!Huhu

Greedy Nida Need...*sigh...

2008-03-27T01:47:00.008Z

Greedy Nida Need
She had no one to pledge
Then came a man to her feet
A charming saviour who became her match

Greedy Nida Need
Appreciation seldom bid
Her arrogance frequently beat
And the charming saviour is constantly left in mid
To love her? To guide her? or the worst, to throw her into bin (*chuckle*)

Why are you so greed, Greedy Nida Need?
He obeys what you rule, He sacrifices more than what you can imagine*d
Ditch your greed
Asking for more (pepsi ad..??), only tot up his bleed!

Now, Greedy Nida Need
Hope you learned
Love is not a child game to play*ed
People say, “The more you give, the more you get back”

And final word,
Learn to say Enuff, when the situation says so,
Learn to be Thankful for the things you gain mo !
Only then you may live blissfully in incoming marriage world !

Nu Na aka Nida
0150 am, March 27, 2008
Stepney Green, London

• A not so-called poem originally written by Nu Na aka Nida
• Was successfully sent to her fiancé’s Sony Ericsson K530i via SKYPE text messenger as to express her regret due to her ‘well-done’ job in making her fiancé’s heart shattered by doing her ‘well-known’ chaotic deeds…
• Full-Stop =( .

Co-Sponsors / Penaja Bersama:

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** The co-sponsors are individual company and they don't have any blood ties or bond any legal agreements with the 'poet'. They just a bunch of pictorial ads to beautifying this time entry...As a matter of fact, I love to use those brand/trademark/service/tagline but I have not so much interest in pepsi..that is to say, not an addictive soft-drinker...lol (^_^)

Finally! Snow in L0nD0N !!!! Alhamdulillah! (^_^)

2008-03-23T17:28:00.007Z

"Only snow man, so what's the great thing about it?"

I noe that dowh!But for a person like me (budak kampung who finally make herself into one of four-season countries), it is something that I am really waiting for!I bet, most of first-timers will feel a lil bit 'jakun' about it!And as for people who always experience it, they surely think, it is not the thing that need to be excited about!lol!

And to feel the snow especially in London, where some of the Londoners think that it is something that occasionally happen throughout the winter mode, I guess, only Allah knows the best about it!And because of HIS blessed permission,I could finally feel
and touch the snow! But only from my window as I did not have any mood to go outside..hehe..

But actually, today is the second day it snows in London. Yesterday,I only heard from sis Zakiah about it. And at that time I felt quite frustrated because I could not see it by my own eyes. But zillion thanks to Allah for HIS kindness, to let me experience it after hardly waiting since last December!Alhamdulillah!

And because I was too excited, I forgot to snap pictures, instead I made a record of it! A few records actually! Haha. I admit it, I am very very "jakun" but I don't care! I am just tooooo happy! Enough said! (^_^)

* The following video was the sixth record..nope the seventh that I made with less babbling voice of me...huhu.Hope you guys enjoy as well !*

:: Snowy London ::

Far Away...

2008-03-22T19:08:00.002Z

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

New INFO to share! Just for FUN ! (^_^)

2008-03-17T08:00:00.008Z

Click here: www.magmypic.com . Now you can be a cover girl for a mag! * I dunt noe when I'll be a cover girl [probably NEVER in my life..haha] on the mag so it's really joyful to do like this! hehe..*

Anyway, you can choose any type of magazines that you wish to publish your self on to once you uploaded your pic...Have a try [only if you just want to kill your time...!] and a very nice weekdays minna !!! (>0<)

I love Sunday mood !!!!!!

2008-03-16T11:56:00.012Z

Running two blogs in parallel sometimes quite exhausted but I enjoy writing, so there is no big deal anyway hehe...I try to be just to both blogs but I can't really help myself to focus on Nu Na's Chronicle, can I ?

Anyway, here is the latest entry from Nu Na's frenster blog....
As today's entry, I just wanted to share a few pictures which I just snapped them off this morning...They were this morning's view looking from my window....As I looked outside through the window, somehow, I felt so peaceful, so calm and sooooo sleepy as well *ehehehe..* because of the rains probably that made my mood swing and it reminds me of how I felt when it was raining in Malaysia...owh how much I miss Malaysia, it couldn't depict from the words...only heart knows best....huhu..sob sob... =((

#1 : View from my seat...

#2 : A step closer...

#3 : Looking down at the wet path and field...

#4 : The trees...waiting for the spring to come and nourish them with green leaves and beautiful flowers...

#5 : Wish to become a skillful photographer...just a wish...huhu..

* Can you guys feel what I feel today?..never mind, it doesn't bring any significant impacts on your guy's life anyway..hehe (^p^) *

How to be a good muslimah...?

2008-03-13T18:07:00.012Z

Despite the polemically politics discussion here and there, there is another important question that circulates through out each single nerve that resides within my brain that is How to be a good muslimah ? That question which is more specific to be addressed upon myself as how to be a good servant to Allah which applies to all who claim themselves as Islamic practitioners. I grabbed one of the opportunities back then when I just started my career in UTHM by attending a lecture conducted by Dato' Dr. Fadzilah Kamsah. His lectures were interesting and informative as usual. I remembered he did mention about the word 'insan' which was originated from the Arab word that when we interpreted it again brought the meaning of forgetful.

Further he explained that, that is how we, as a human being vividly the 'interpretation of insan' practically in our daily life. We keep forgetting and most of the times, we keep repeating the same mistakes all over again because of that 'forgetful mind'. However, from my point of view, it's not only that 'forgetful mind' whom should take the blame. The lack of i) willpower, ii) strong determination and iii) religious-oriented should share the responsibility as well. I also one of the 'forgetful mind's victim and a prey of all those numbered points I mentioned just now.

At first, I thought that I need someone who can keep reminding me about what's good and what's bad but it turned out that, I need to have those willpower, strong determination and as an individual, be more religious-oriented. After all, it's Allah, the ONLY TRULY source that we seek help, to woo support and to gain blessing in this world and the world after.

And back to the main question on how to be a good muslimah? I admit, that the awareness to be a good muslimah is not always knocking my 'awareness receptor'. However, as one of my colleagues (En. Fandi) said, this journey (hijrah to this west mainland to seek knowledge) is the way to become a better muslim. Indeed, it is not only living in this so-called 'great' English country to seek wisdom but more than that; to teach us on how to be a good muslim/muslimah, to retain that decent attitudes that slightly differ to this so-called 'sophisticated' community on one hand while on the other hand, try to attain that first-class mentality and behaviour. Nothing is impossible to happen but once again, it depends on we, to DO or not to DO.

And personally I think, there is one more criteria that we always miss out that is about the heart diseases (penyakit-penyakit hati). How to cure those diseases of heart? How to discipline the soul? Eventually, back to basis. Think again of how we created by Allah swt because as we forget about this, I believe, we will always have that heart diseases. My humble judgement is based on these attitudes; arrogance and egotism which always accompany some people [ including myself...sob sob =( ] who are in higher posts that sometimes, they forget to look down to see other people who are less fortunate as compare to them. But as we keep lingering on how we created by the Almighty, we will ponder in every action that we may take. Having said that, continuous invocations and supplications (zikir and doa), will also help in curing the diseases of heart.

Nevertheless, it's learnt that it's far way easier to say rather than practically do it. But, just put all efforts to be the best, not only in this frenetic world life but particularly, in the world after. And as for me, lots of physical and mental preparations that need to mull over starting from now since I will make my second hijrah; that is to be a wife to someone. And from now onwards, I will start to think on how to be a solehah wife? As a matter of fact, we will always and always make a hijrah in our life. And my pray that, hopefully, on every hijrah that I make along the life, may it turn out to be good, may this soul will always fill with the regrets of past, now and future sins and may every minutes, this mind and body work hand in hand to be a good muslimah now and forever. InsyaAllah....

P/S: Have a look at this sembahyang blog. This blog can be as a means of fulfilling any craving souls who seek a way to be a better person. (^_^)

Picture courtesy: modified from various sources; internet

The Election 2008 : A Quick Review

2008-03-10T10:57:00.015Z

Hai minna !!! Today's entry is about a quick review on the 12th General Election. It seems that the Malaysian people are ready to make new changes in the Malaysia political atmosphere !

The 12th General Election which was held in March 8, 2008 marked a new history in my beloved country, Malaysia. The date which was also claimed to be the birthday of MIC president, Dato' Sri Samy Vellu, however, brought him a 'heart attack' after the joyful victory by his opponent, Dr. Jeyakumar for the Sg Siput parliamentary seat. Dr. Jeyakumar, a physician, stood under PKR ticket.

As for me, the most shocking result was definitely the win of coalition of PKR, DAP and PAS to be as the newly state government to rule my beloved state, Selangor !!! Instead of Selangor, other states which will be run by the opposition parties are Penang (DAP and PKR), Perak (DAP and PKR), Kedah (If Im not mistaken, PAS) and Kelantan (PAS). The sudden loss mourned by the BN party and the reasons for such huge losses should be well-investigated. It probably could be due to the mount of races issues raised recently or losing faith/confidence towards the leaders' reputation; corruption, corruption, corruption; the never ending issue...., the inflation problem and many more. All these problems might raise a question to the the voters' mind set about what kind of gov. do they need actually?!

Well, finally, it was the peoples' voice who made all these unexpected outcome!

I think, the Malaysian people now want a more transparent and equality in every aspects. They don't even want any corruption submerge especially among people in the highest post. It was not about being Malay, Malay, Chinese, Chinese or Indian, Indian anymore! The most important issue to be addressed here is that how to generalize these races to be as one race so-called Malaysian races. And at the same time, the freedom and respecting to each religion should be practised all the time by each individual regardless the race and ideology.

I'm not too young nor too old to give my own statements. And my statements don't really indicate my preference to any parties. They are just my humble view on the current situations in my country which I just left for about 6 months !

And as for the opposition parties who successfully won a few states, please; show to us how sincere and responsible you are after we all giving you the mandate. You are the voice of people so please act according to the people's need !!! And do remember, it's the people's vote that give you that power !

Do refer to this People's Declaration. It's good to know rather than have zero info about it ...(^_^)

Have a nice weekdays minna !!! (n_n)

AppReCiaTi0N ! (^_^) hihi

2008-03-05T18:59:00.009Z

:: Thanks Note from Nathan..yeay =p !!! ::

Still remember my previous entry about the group presentation for Clinical & Measurement subject? Well, we supposed to do the presentation on Friday last week but unfortunately, the laptop was unavailable and the second examiner was coming late to class. After a short discussion, the presentation was bring forward to next week which is this week and the day was decided to be on Wednesday, which is today, at 11 am in Room 371. huh huuu.

So, my group was the second grup to do the presentation and it went pretty well (that's because it's Nathan who presented it!!). However, when it came to the Q & A session, the lecturer started to ask the question. "What kind of stimulation apply for those techniques ?" ..."Sorry, it doesn't mention in the paper. I don't know really. How about you guys, anyone?" Nathan directed the question to us. For a few seconds, none of my grup members dare to speak up. And without any hesitates, I voice out my opinion.

"It didn't stated what kind of stimulation they used to provide the electrical stimulation to the muscle. However, I believe that, it depends on the optimum frequency waveform. Usually, the optimum frequency use for FES is between 20 Hz to 50 Hz because bla blabla....." (For this entry, I type my answers clearer and with minimal grammatical errors and with correct sequences...but not during the presentation...I really made so many blunders...huhuhu)

By the way, I didn't really recall where I got the strength to answer the question but I believed, it must be from Allah, who gave me the strength !Alhamdulillah ! And after the presentation was over, my group members thank you me and I was feel quite happy because I could do something for them! =D You're most welcome everyone !!!!

And, further reading the email from Nathan, he asked about the Digital Lab which was just completed yesterday. Well, Nathan, to be honest, I also don't have any clues. I don't even start to think about it ! Anyway, it's good that you ask me that question so that I will start to think and write the lab report piece by piece as early as possible ! Huhu...

Let me think first....hurmmmmm..

Amy Winehouse - Forget about her 'black' list attitudes, I just love her songs !!!! (>0<)

2008-03-01T23:35:00.007Z

Amy Winehouse...I admit it, I never like her though I never listen to her songs...Why I don't like her? Good question. {begin speaks with stress tone} Because, every time I read the paper, usually the one that I got in the tube, there will be a bad report about her ... rehab, cocaine, heavy drunk and bla bla bla ... she's really annoyed me! {end speaks with stress tone} BUT, that was before I listening to her songs...Like an old Malay saying ,:: Tak Kenal Maka Tak Cinta ::<-- please translate this for me...=p...

And so, I searched her songs in YouTube and get my ears ready to listen to her first song. And what happened next, I continuously played from one song to another track and another track and so on...Okie dokie, she got that remarkable talent, the gifted voice BUT I have to say that I hate her weird hair style! Oke oke, I know it is her trademark but Sorry, I just gave my personal opinion and you people cannot blame me for that...So, no arguments on that oke?! A short and clear message to Amy :
Don't self-destruct yourself !

So, here are a few of her songs that I find quite soulful and catchy. Jazz Ssensation, I do love it !!!! Enjoy ! (^^)

Amy Winehouse - Love Is A Losing Game [Official Music Video]

Amy Winehouse -You Know I'm No Good

Amy Winehouse - Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow

Amy Winehouse - You sent me flying

(>x<) Love the first one :: Love Is A Losing Game... and You sent me flying..How about you guys?..hehe

Pcture Courtesy: from internet

An Earthquake in London ?!

2008-02-28T07:15:00.009Z

I first being questioned by my fiance,"Are you fine there dear? Is that true that there was an earthquake in London today?". He sounded his worry towards me when I called him last night. And my quick response to him "HaaaaaaaaA ???". I was about to burst my high-pitch laugh since I never heard such thing in my life; I mean, the earthquake shakes London? But he quickly said, "I'm not sure dear because I'm too busy today and I don't have time to hear the news but, Ayah text me; he informed me about this thing and wanted to know about your condition there"

Oke, that was sound like a fact and not a fairy-tale since the news came from Ayah, my future father-in law. And for a while, I felt quite happy because Ayah quite concerned about my situation here! hehehe (shy shy cat..=p)...And so, I called my mum and dad as soon as I finished my talk with my fiance. And yeah, my mum kept asking me if I'm okay there? How was it? Did you feel anything? Was there any damages at your place? and bla bla bla...MUM ! I'm doing really fine here. Don't too much worry about me since I am being PROTECTED by your prays! It's your pray that keeps me live, healthy, happy, strong and patience here! Trillion THANKS for your DOA mak! I really, really appreciate for that mak! =D

Finished talking to my mum (I talked for about an hour and half!A usual time record..hehe), I googled to find the news about the earthquake and read the reports from the BBC. So, I figured out that it happened on Wednesday which was yesterday at about 1 am, and the magnitude recorded was around 5.3 Richter scale. That was pretty strong of earth movement! And indeed, it was the biggest earthquake magnitude that rocked the houses in London! Praise to ALLAH as well since it didn't happen in my area but I read that there was a part of East London which was also shook by the earthquake! Alhamdulillah ! Furthermore, the earthquake will shake London within 20 0r 25 years. Don't know that fact !!!

I anticipate that nothing is impossible to happen since it depends on ALLAH, The Almighty who has the true power; who decides which one is and which one isn't to crop up. Everything happens in this world is because of HIM, who consents thing to come about! And it's our duty or responsibility to ALWAYS pray to HIM and asks only the good things to be occurred in our life! And A very good reminder to you guys and to me as well is that, " Don't only close to HIM when you're facing woes !!! " Otey ?

Picture courtesy: http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/shared/bsp/hi/pdfs/earthquake_guide.pdf

(^_^)

The Speedtest - How fast are you?

2008-02-27T00:19:00.005Z

Hai again! I've got one interesting website to share with! You probably had used it; if so, we can compare our results then! hehe...(^_*)

Do you know how many words you can type in a minute? I always want to know how fast I can type within a minute! As far as I know, sometimes, in certain application forms, there will be a question asking you how many words you can type in a minute. So, it might be useful if you try this speed test as it will give you the total words that you manage to type in one minute!

You can go to www.speedtest.10-fast-fingers.com/ to try it. It will not cost you a thing and from time to time, you could use it as a practice to increase your typing speed! As for me, I will use it to at least; refresh my brain or when I feel too sleepy as this test requires a full concentration!

Below was the result of mine. How many times I tried the test, I still can only type not more than 43 words or 219 characters in a minute! I know it's quite slow for a young lady like me! (sigh) !

43 words

Speedtest

For Angah - Switching Yahoo Mail Classic to Beta Version & Other Interesting Solutions ! (^_^)

2008-02-26T19:31:00.020Z

This entry is dedicated to Angah, one of my old schoolmate friends back then in 90s (1990-1995)! Well, I don't know how far this will help you because I already use the New Yahoo Mail for quite a long time (since last year), and so far, it doesn't really bring any hassle for me if I want to interchange the mail classic to beta version and vice versa. So, what you can do now is that, try to follow the steps below (Click On the Image For A Better View). It will not take so much time to complete all procedures.

FIRST STEP

After you logging in, you may see the box that gives you an option to switch to new yahoo mail. Click that box. [ Incidentally,for yahoo mail users who never switch into the new yahoo mail version, there will be a case where your yahoo mail account prompts a window or a statement asks if you like to switch it to the new yahoo mail version (once you log in). So, in that case, you just need to click that new yahoo mail option. ]

SECOND STEP

Once you click, you will be redirected to a new yahoo mail account which is also known as beta version.(Look at the top arrow). That arrow shows your current status; exactly like in YM where you can change the mode; online, offline, invisible and etc. Default mode is offline, so you need to change it to online or invisible mode. Only by doing this you will be able to see who's online and who's not. Your online friends will be automatic loaded according to your available contacts friends (lower arrow).

THIRD STEP

You are free to switch it back to the old one at any time in future...=D

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Nevertheless, chatting via Yahoo email is really not a favourable one. Sometimes, it's just get stuck, or your friend's message will not appear on your screen for unknown reasons. It's like "missing in action"...however, it could be a useful one rather than have nothing! Aite? =)

On the other hand, there are also other solutions that you could use to replace the YM. I don't know whether you have heard about them; meebo or ebuddy (also formerly known as e-messenger); just to name a few. They are among popular web messengers that let you access to any kind of instant messaging platforms such as YM, Google Talk and etc.

You can access these two user friendly web messengers via the links as follow:

Meebo = http://www.meebo.com/
E-messenger or ebuddy = http://www.e-messenger.net/ or www.ebuddy.com

WEB INSTANT MESSAGING : meebo

WEB INSTANT MESSAGING : emessenger

Okie dokie! Hopefully, these info. will probably help you in anyway. The most important thing is that, even though the IT admin blocks all those chatting as well as the network community (frenster, myspace, facebook and etc) services, you can still enjoy a very cosy chat with your friends all over the world!!! Good Luck and Have fun ya Angah! (^_^)

P/S: I prefer to use the meebo rather than ebuddy but you can try to open both and experience them by yourself and let your heart decides which one you prefer most! I used meebo service back then when I worked in UTHM. As usual, most of the univs in Malaysia will block those friendster, myspace, mirc; any kind of things related with that!

Quite frustrated right?; since we gain a full 24-7 access of the internet but for some reasons, we can't use those applications (Aarrrggghhhhh)!!! But thank god, there will always be other solutions for that! YeaY !!! =D. Lastly, Don't forget to mention my name in your blog once you manage to chat with your friends later on! MuahahahahA =D

GP & Contact Lens Appointments and Revamping A Room!

2008-02-25T20:11:00.009Z

My dream glasses...will buy it when I back to Malaysia soon!Bwahahaha

Bored and Tired...that's how I feel at the moment...I try to start writing up my two courseworks; first is for the lab report (Clinical Measurement subject) and second one is about critical review regarding two journal papers (Research & Methodology Techniques). I really struggling when it comes on writing academic reports as compare when writing an entry for my blog!..huhu...How I truly wish if I can write those academic reports just as smooth as I'm writing this entry!

I feel tired tonight because this morning I went to two places. First, I took a walk to Commercial Road to book an appointment for General Practitioner or we call it GP (at last! After being here for almost 6 months! Nida...Nida...you are really a couch potato!). And guess what, the only available slot for me is next month, 28th of March 2008, at quarter past 2 and what make it worst is that, I forget that I actually have an Ultrasound & Imaging lab at that time! Owh, what a crap!!!! So, I need to go back there and change the appointment but definitely not tomorrow as I have a full day class!

Then, I went to the eye practitioner shop near to my university campus since I intend to wear a contact lens. Unfortunately, she didn't offer a contact lens service; instead, she recommended another optician shop which was located in Bethnel Green. So, I took a bus to go there (Bus No. 309) and got-off from it at the last station. Once again, I had to walk and walk and walk until finally, I found the shop. So, I walked-in and thank god, the receptionist lady was very helpful and explained bit by bit about the whole process of getting the contact lens. So, the process listed down here are the prices that the lady had quoted for me. It's just for your general info. But really, it is not like in Malaysia where you can easily get, buy and wear it !!! (sigh)

1st: Eyesight Test - GBP22 (it's free only if you are under 16, full time students but not more than 19 years old), Have Diabetic or Glaucoma history, Funded by the Gov under certain scheme (can't really remember). Hey, the eyesight test is free in Malaysia you know!Truly UK!
2nd: A Week Trial - GBP30 (after fitting, they will give you the contact lens and you need to wear it for one week. After one week trial, if you encounter any difficulties within that period, they will do the fitting again and give you the second trial. The 30pounds you pay will cover all trials that may be occur during contact lens fitting)
3rd: Contact Lens + Solutions - Prices vary (You will pay GBP50 for a monthly basis which covers for 3 months usage. However, if you are interested in daily basis opt, then willingly to sacrifice GBP30 which only comes with 30 pairs of contact lens)
So far, I choose for daily basis since I don't think I want to wear it for a month!No way!....

As soon as I came back to my room (Room Sweet Room..hehe), I found out that it was really messy with the notes and clothes all over the place. Therefore, I decided to do a lil bit changes on it..As a result, here is what she looks like now...So, this is my room which I have to pay 75GBP per week...and I know, it's not as big as my other friends' room who live outside London...Otherwise, what do you expect? This is LONDON guys, everything is expensive especially the room or house rent !!! I am not affordable to get a spacious and beautiful room though how I sincerely wish to get one! Phewww, only in my dreams!!!

Ro0m SWEET Ro0m (n_n)

A Week Updates! lol!

2008-02-23T15:15:00.007Z

Hai there! It has been a week since my last post. This week, even though it was supposed to be a Reading Week, the classes were still ongoing and as usual, I was busy with the assignments especially for the Clinical Measurement subject where I will have the second presentation but this time, it will be a group presentation next Friday! Thank God that we will only have to pick one or two presenter(s) to deliver the speech. And, Nathan has became our saviour since he is the only native speaker in our group! Yeay! Thanks Nathan! =).

Functional Electrical Stimulation (FES) Application =p

By the way, I came across a very good website where you can custom-made your picture to become like the one shows below. This is not the only thing that you can do with your pictures. They create a lot of user friendly tools which are able to morph the pictures to be as a calendar, motivational poster and etc. The website statistic states that to date, 4,432,277 things have been created this month! Wow! Such a huge numbers and I guess, it probably because it's free, and what you only need to do is to sign up. That's it! Curious to know what's the website address? Orait, check this out:
http://bighugelabs.com/flickr/

During my visit to Surrey, Uni of. (^_^)

BUT in spite of overload works, I was really over the moon when I received a very thoughtful delivery from my sweet fiance! Hip Hip Hooray! (^_^)! He sent me a very lovely cat...ermmm, i mean card, well it doesn't matter since he sent both of them to me! hahaha (take a peek of the picture below hehe)..and a few latest pictures of him and Amirul(his youngest brother...i miss that little rascal sooo much!)..Anyway, Thanks a lot sweetie!!!

The Cat, the Card, Amirul n Him =D

Pisang Goreng or Goreng Pisang ?

2008-02-16T21:29:00.014Z

We call this Pisang Tanduk or Horn Banana...hihi

Hola !

Juz came back from Ilford! Wow, I'm soooo full rite now! Kak yus is really a good chef! She cooked a few delicious meals which could only be found in Malaysia! Kuah Lemak Rebung(bamboo shoot) and Ikan Masin Masak Pedas (Yummy yum!). Actually, she juz came back from Malaysia so she brought a lot of things that couldn't be found or rarely to find, to England.

And I am very happy right now because finally, I can eat Goreng Pisang or Pisang Goreng (I don't know which one is correct...hehe)..Goreng Pisang or Fried Banana is one of my favourite food...I tried to find the banana (not the eaten one) in shops near to my residential area but to no avail. So, I asked Kak Yus to buy it because as far as I remembered, last year, she bought it from the local shop near to her residential area. Yippie! Can't wait to fry them!

What is my plan for tomorrow ya? Huh, I suppose to do my lab report because my other classmates have already started. I also don't do anything related with my assignments today! I spent my time played with the kids, Batrisya, Danish and Darwisyh, and also watched the Malay movies; Chermin (horror movie...but actually it is not...I didn't get scared at all...and it was soooo boring..!huhu) and 9 September (romantic comedy....oke laa...Fasha Sandha is a lil bit sexy i guess...to attract more male audiences,..maybe..I dunno)..

Okie dokie...I want to get rest and...urmmm..yaa, call my fiance...hihi...

C ya!

Before going out!

Can You Count How Many Assignments That Need to be DONE? and READING WEEK !

2008-02-15T17:37:00.007Z

Those colurful sticky notes (picture at left side) attached at my laptop are the list of assignments that need to be completed by 1st April 2008! Gosh! I can't say anything...just go through it one by one with a lil bit of patience and, strong will, of course! (sigh).

Forget about that one for a moment. Today is friday and that means, no class tomorrow and the next after tomorrow. Yeay! Next week is the week 7 of lecture and in the Britain's univ system, they call it as a Reading Week. Supposedly, there will be no class or lectures taking place BUT that doesn't apply to the Engineering School. From what I heard, only courses that involve lots of reading, for instance, Law or International Affair, that have been given that privilege. So, the lectures will still on going next week except for the Research and Methodology Technique class ( BUT, we have been told to complete our assignments when the class is halt (huh!)).

And tomorrow, I will visit Kak Yus and family in Ilford. Owh I really miss Bus No. 25 (Ilford - Oxford Circus)! I used to call Bus No. 25, "long bus" since it is really a long bus! It has 3 couches that can occupied more than 80 people during peak hour! That bus has been a main public transport for me to travel from my previous house to QMUL. And I really thank to Allah because I don't have to use that bus anymore. It is always full with people and that's make it difficult for you to get a sit! And travelling to home after finishing class, i tell you, it's not really a good experience! It's tiring and I really don't like being in such crowded area! huh!

okie dokie..I want to go for pray now....continue later! (^_^)

Nu Na

Strive for the Best!

2008-02-14T23:45:00.007Z

Sorry for the late update! Really bizi this week with the presentation and classes! (sigh) Anyway, last tuesday, I had a chat with my coursemate, Helen. We talked about so many things; starting with the presentation. She told me that I was really freaking out when Dr. Mueller said that the time left was 2 mins more...hahaha, it was really damn funny! I acted like I saw a ghost!..hahaha.. Then, we talked about academic and even dragged into personal things!

However, among those topics, the one that I interested in most was about the academic things. Helen, she is an English girl, a native speaker, done her undergraduate study in Surrey, univ of and she is working now as a biomedical engineer. And in addition to that, she is a part time student but she manage to get 70++ for Clinical & Measurement paper and Ultrasound & Imaging paper which I consider as a brilliant results!

These 2 subjects are among the difficult one, for me. The only subjects that I guess I could do better are Analogue Electronics and Digital Electronics (that's because I already gain the foundation of it). The rest are totally suck and brand new for me! Nevertheless, when I heard that she successfully manage to, at least get above 70, at some points, I anticipate that nothing is impossible to achieve!

One of my bad attitudes is that, sometimes I just easily give up. I need some time to rebuild the courage again. But, with the continuous support from my fiance, family and friends, I am able to weather the storm. And today, I am quite happy! Why? Today's afternoon, as soon as I completed my PhD Writing class, I went to the School of Engineering & Material Sciences office to collect my 2 courseworks (from 2 different subjects) which I did last semester. And guess what? Against all negative expectations, the results were came up trumps! Alhamdulillah. Praise to Allah!

So, one thing for sure, NEVER GIVE UP guys! Never give up until you try it. And Try it with all genuine efforts and to the best that you could possibly do!

A leather jacket for a special one....

2008-02-10T08:52:00.001Z

Yesterday, I went to several places; from Stepney Green tube station -> Gloucester Park -> Notting Hill Gate -> Marble Arch -> Edgware Road -> Whitechapel -> Used bus No. 11 (my 2 adorable legs hehe...) back to Stepney Green...Whoaaa...quite tiring actually because I didn't eat anything when I went out, only drank the plain water and yesterday, I guessed there was a tournament, Im not sure..rugby or what, it seemed like there were a lot of All Black supporters...owh crap, I really dunt know what the heck was going on yesterday?!lol! Sorry guys, I'm a lil bit backward regarding sport so I couldn't give any specific reasons for that gathering yesterday in Gloucester Park. Maybe if you check on the web, you will be able to find some info. about that (only if you are interested..I'm not!=p)

Anyway, I bought a nice leather jacket for my abah (father)..Don't ask me how much the price is; You surely say,"Are you crazy?". Well, I don't care, for me it is just a humble gift for my old abah, this jacket is nothing as to compare to what he has done for me, endured lots of hardships and pain juz to bring me up! As long as I could see his face smiling, it would be a great feeling for me indeed! =D

I juz find it difficult,on the other hand, to find a gift for my mak (mum)...She is not a fashionable women and she really doesn't like to look gorgeous! She is such a down-to-earth person...When I asked her; what she wants or what she likes? Her answer was soooo simple, "I don't want anything!" Huuuh, come to think of it, I guess all mums in this world will not say what they exactly want, if they have one, they just keep it in their heart! Such a pure heart reside in them! Owh, i really miss her sooo damn much! Hopefully, I could get something that is very very nice for her! I love u mak! I love u abah!

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